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well i'm only having one baby, thank goodness. not that i wouldn't love another set of twins but we would have areally hard tome for a while. this child didn't want to give up the goodies though. no matter which way the nurse had me turn to get this kid to move he/she wouldn't uncross his/her ankles. but that is ok. just knowing that the baby is doing okay was enough for me. at least this time. my mom was a little disapionted about not knowing but she was glad that the baby was okay. Karly sat in on the ultrasound and got bored really fast. i think that if she were able to make heads or tails of it she would have enjoyed it.

well i still haven't found out if i'm having twins or not but i dreamt that i was having a little girl!. i didn't actually see her but in my dream i just knew that she was a girl. it was nice to have a normal dream for once!

well i had my doctors appiontment the other day and i'm really scared. apparently my uterous doesn't feel like i'm 12 weeks like it should. it feels like it is 16 weeks and that could mean one of two things. i'm farther along that i thought or i'm having twins again. i just found out that if you've already had a set of identical twins than your chances of having another set are really good. i don't know what we'll do if we have twins again. we don't even have room here for one baby let alone two. i won't beable to go beck to work for a long time and i think that things will be a lot more stressful. i know if it happens it will just happen and we'll have to make the best of it, and i know that we will, but i'm still scared. we told my daughter about me being pregnant and she is very excited. she is absolutley convinced that we are having a girl and she ignores us when we tell her it could be a boy. i'm hoping that the baby is a girl because i don't want her to feel anything bad toward this baby.