miriamhyde's Journal

I always break them, so why set myself up for failure!

Planning a quiet evening, and a nice family breakfast.  We traditionally have a New Year's Day brunch with lots of friends...just too broke and no Food Stamps.  So it's just us, amd maybe one or two friends.  It will be OK; probably better for me than the stress the brunch causes.

We were anonymously gifted with cash today.  It came in a card with no return address.  Enough to get gas and some groceries.  Whoever you are, thank you and thank you again.

I spoke to my therapist, and Drew, today, about why I spend time on DS.  I feel cared about and supported.  I get objective perspectives.  I laugh and cry.  I can be brutally honest, both about myself and to others. I can say things and not be offensive, or offended when others tell me things. I am not unfairly judged.  I get challenged. I can give, and take.  Mostly,  I can be smart, witty, opinionated, compasionate and passionate.  And especially, I feel respected.

But, I also need to not use DS as a way to hide from my world.  It is a place to retreat, but not isolate in.

I wish all of you the very happiest of New Years.  Even when life sucks.  Perhaps, "2009 will be just fine"...