lilacwoman's Journal

This is over a month later.  So much has happened.  Sara is in Texas.  We (Sara and I) were so scared when she left.  But, everything is going great.  Her friend who got hit by a truck is so glad she is there to help.  And I am also.  When your goal is to help someone in need, God protects and guides you through the process, till you are not needed anymore.  We have both grown in her absence.  I have learned I can survive the lonliness of being without her, and she has learned that she can can face a very terrifying experience like travelling halfway across the country and not only get there safely, but be a huge help to someone who needs her while there.    

I am trying to change the kind of relationship I have with james so I can be close to God.  One definitely affects the other because a prson can't be close to God unless he or she is obeying the rules God has set down for a man and woman who love each other and desire to marry.  So I've made the decision with God's help to try and keep our relationship pure on every level--physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. So far God has enabled me tobe successful.  I am praying for James' salvation every day and hope he will not be angry with me for asking him to change our relationship.