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I just discovered that Alias Panda Baby AKA Dayzdreamer AKA Zoe passed away at the end of January. We had been very close at one time sharing recovery, cirrhosis swelling, etc. Which makes me wonder why her and not me? I had myself a good cry over that tonight while asking that question. The answer I got was "It just isn't my time". It has made me realize that I have many friends here on DS which I have abandoned and for that i am sorry. I wish I could say it was because I have been too ill but that isn't entirely true. True enough is the fact that I am not able to be on the PC as much as I would like but there have been many times when I could have jumped on here and said I was ok, see if there was anyone I could help, etc. but I didn't. I become heavily involved in 2 causes when I joined DS 1. Hepatitis C & 2. MMT Awareness I believe the latter is why I began neglecting my friends here. There is no support group for that here & all I have ever received was negative comments about it (not from anyone in the HCV or Liver groups but from the recovery based groups. Many important issues began arising in MMT which was going to directly affect my sobriety, as well as others, if they weren't stopped so I made the video "Finding Normal" and the rest was chaos. People writing, calling, requesting copies for their clinics to use in the waiting room, etc. I was so busy but I cherished every minute of it because I knew I was making real change! However, I had no time for DS So, when things died down I had been away so long it seemed easier to stay away...ya know?
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I understand you my awesome sister..I adore you and will always love you...Pam
scrambler
so good to see you back. I was real scared there for awhile not hearing from you and I had this horrid feeling ...I thank you for coming back..I missed you..I am scared for us all...really scared....I keep thinking about getting things in "order" ..ya know??...what will be, will be...just please...dont go away for too long..we all love and miss you more then I think you know!!!! always , your sister and friend...Serenity55/Deb
serenity55
I'm glad that you came back to check up on things here Kristina. You were a very important part of this hepc community. But I totally understand your limitations. I'm just glad I can keep up with you on myspace. I'm not here so much as last year but try to come in and just touch base a few times a week. Maybe an hour a week, not the 40 hours I was here last year. Love you and enjoy Wyatt, they grow so fast...xoxo
nonilv
It is great to hear from you Kristina and that you are doing such wonderful work and that your cause is responding to you...what better thing to do than to contribute to others....
It is truly sad about PandyBaby but she will always live in my wonderful memories of her as I'm sure she will to all that knew and loved her.
You take care of yourself hun and give that precious baby a kissy from Auntie Ellie...xoxo
FlyingMonkey
I am here at DS because of Kphelps...she sent me here,saying I would find answers here....(I'm kind of writing this to her friends here, as well as to HER...) Well, I for one, am very grateful you have been doing your thing to promote awareness, acceptance and education about MMT. I too, am on MMT, and it saved my life as well. During my recent path, I came across Kristina and her campaign against stigma and ignorance of MMT. Believe me when I say, she has had some strong opposition about this. And she stood her ground....and I know always will. I am in awe of her for that.
She is the most amazing woman..sweet and strong, and REAL.
I am also not here everyday, for I am also on other support sites for the methadone...it is something I need and wish I would have had years ago....I feel guilty to my friends here if I can't be around every day but I only have so much time in the day ....This is a great place, as Kris told me it was...
Ok I think I am done rambling now......hope you all have a lovely and blessed day.....
Thanks always to you, Kristina for showing the way....
ThisToo
Once Zoe had asked me to tell you "Hello", like she knew you were at myspace and doing your thing elsewhere, so I did, you probably responded to her.
She was a very private, classy Lady, whom I am proud to say, that we had grown to be pretty close in the end. She wouldn't post too much regarding her condition, since she didn't want anyone to be scared, also so they didn't know how much she was suffering in the end. She fought till the end, my Warrior friend, may she rest in Peace now, on God's side and his Angels. Now you take care my love, and if and when you get a minute, please let me know what's going on with you. I would love to hear from you, and if I do go on myspace, I will drop in and see more pics of your brand new baby boy, your son must be on top of the world, just like you Grandmama.
Love you my darling friend, Mckenzie Ontario Canada.
One day at the time.
Mckenzie
Hi Ky. Sister, good to hear you are still with us , especially after the storm we just had, knocked my PC out for 5wks. How old is that grandbaby now 6 or 8 months, I bet he's a handful.... Stay in touch... BlueEyed
BlueEyed