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KateT130 
7:04pm, February 18, 2009
I'm making some changes in my recovery. I'm nervous but when the decision was done and the call was made I felt great relief and knew I had made the right decision.
A few weeks ago I found out some things about my sponsor that I wasn't really crazy about. I realized that I wasn't really sure I liked the way she was working the progam, this has been my feeling for a few months now. I dumped her. I had to. I am also switching all of my meetings because now thanks to her I know who lied about falling off the wagon, who is sleeping with who, etc.
I don't know if that is what recovery in AA is about typically, but I found some quieter meetings closer to my job that I've been attending. I go and feel relaxed and calm when I leave instead of aggitated and not being able to look the other meeting attendees in the eyes.
In conjunction with my new "calmer" meetings, I have an interview on Friday with an outpatient recovery center with a therapist that specializes in alcoholism. This person will bring me through the steps!!
I'm so relieved and excited. This is my way.
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You have to do what feels right for you for sure Kate. I still dont have a sponsor but am keeping things in the day. I know it is not ideal but, I believe that someone will appear when I am ready. For now, my meetings and service work are keeping me sober. Good luck my friend, just keep not picking up that first drink. You go gal x
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