mschif's Journal

Today is my 6th day of a juice fast.  I'm still struggling with thoughts of food and feeling ill but it seems to go up and down.  I have moments when I feel really well and ALIVE but just like that they seem to disappear and I'm back to feeling less than well.  I'm really polluted this time around so I reckon this fast is going to be a lot of HELL before the sparkly ride, but it will happen.

I have too much time on my hands and long for the days when there were not enough hours in the day to finish all of my goals.  Maybe the answer to that is to have some goals to begin with?  I dunno'!

My husband doesn't even notice me anymore, I'm not sure why.  I tried to entice him last night as I stretched on the floor allowing my shirt to fall over my head, exposing my breasts.  I thought he would desire me then and rapture me but NO, he wasn't even paying attention and was nodding off to sleep.  Same ol'.  Same ol'.

I stated something to the effect that soon our relationship will make NO SENSE and he said "it doesn't make sense now."

How true.

So.... back to my World of Make-BElieve where none of that matters anyhow, I have an Imaginary Lover there and he keeps me very well entertained.

BE WELL.