Miss Me?
January 6, 2009 12:32am
I miss me too.
Goal Completed on Dec 24, 07
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mschif
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In minds crammed with thoughts, organs clogged with toxins, and bodies stiffened with neglect, there is just no space for anything else. ~A
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About Me
I AM what I think I AM. "The issue of whether there is a Greater Reality or not, for me at least, has been settled. I know that there is. So I will speak to you from the knowing that I possess and will not in any way equivocate or minimze my statements and my truth to fit nicely into the dualism of your human considerations." -Emmanuel
Interests
I AM a mehndi artist and enjoy creating and making people feel BEautiful. I love gardening and cooking and am quite good at it. I have 2 dogs, 1 cat, 1 lizard and a fish named Fandago. I sing loud, obnoxious songs I make up on the fly for everyone and thing I love. Writing is very therapeutic for me and I can really waffle on sometimes, trust me.
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mschif commented on their journal entry Miss Me? 12:49am
My New Years Resolution is to become more detached...I don't think I will have a problem with that.…
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mschif gave katsmeow a moment of peace 12:45am
Wow, cool new huggy icons. Thanks for the rainbow Kat, I've certainly rained enough tears to deserve…
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mschif wrote a journal entry: Miss Me? 12:32am
I miss me too.…
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mschif changed their mood to Bad 12:32am
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mschif updated their status 12:30am
In minds crammed with thoughts, organs clogged with toxins, and bodies...…
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Journal
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Scattered & Battered
December 20, 2008 6:17am
Hidey Ho! I'm still around, I just seem to have too many profiles on the Internet these days and can't keep up with all of …
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Home Sweet Home
November 23, 2008 9:30am
I made it back home Friday and slept almost all day and most of yesterday. My trip to KY was an eye-opener as well as a heart breaker. …
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Journal Entry for November 9, 2008
November 9, 2008 10:55am
Well it seem that Thursday will BE my 2 year Anniversary here on DS, although it doesn't seem like I have been here that long. Where does …
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YES WE CAN!
November 6, 2008 8:33am
Tears of JOY! Tears of PRIDE! Tears of HOPE! YES WE CAN! YES WE DID! YES WE WILL!
America has spoken and the …
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Hugbook
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Rainbow
There is a treasure at the end of this rainbow and it is our...friendship !ahhhhh
Little Love
Happy New Year dear friend. I sure rang the old one out hit all the pots and pans made lots of noise. Getting ready for a new healthy year for us all. Luv, Ree
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Flower
Hi JoAnn have a wonderful Christmas and let's hope a good New Year. Luv, Ree
Hug
We spoke on the phone. Mom's all but gone. She'll just get Morphine and saline to let her go painlessly but she is in a coma almost. Eric
Present
Merry Christmas...thinking of you...xx buckle
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Smoking Addiction & Recovery
I have smoked for over 25+ years. The most intense, faithful relationship in my Life has been with a cigarette. I have suffered for them, braved the elements for them, spent my last cent on them. I have given cigarettes my everything but now it is time to say goodbye, cold turkey, as of >date not yet decided!>
Treatments
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- I quit for a short time with this. It mostly made cigarettes taste horrible thus reducing your craving. I simply stopped taking it and went back to smoking.
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- I quit for about 1 month but slowly started sneaking the smokes back in.
- Nicotine Patch Not Working
- working it. Really helps take the edge off though I fear the stepping down.
- Hypnotherapy Not Working
- This simply didn't do anything for me. Not sure why, but my brain is just not receptive to suggestion. I'm stubborn that way.
- Writing Too Soon to Tell
- Going to give writing in my DS journal to help me in giving up smoking. It's a big step for me to be so open about my weakness. I like to BElieve I AM so strong.
- Laughter Somewhat Helpful
- It helps to BE able to laugh at myself and at my situation. What is the alternative, crying? I've tried that too!
Close Alcoholism
I have 2 alcoholic parents and my youngest brother died in a drunk driving accident at the age of 21. Alcoholism has been a constant in my life and I REALLY TRULY HATE IT! I AM free of the clutches now, after many years of being drunk and ashamed. I never forget to thank GOD for Rhonda Lenair and my continued sobriety. lenair.com
Treatments
- AA Meetings Not Working
- I just cannot conform to rules and regulations, or feel guilt for not "working" the "program" Sitting around talking about drinking only made me want to drink more.
- Crying Not Working
- Oh woe is me. Nobody loves me, nobody cares. The more I cried, the more I drank. Viscous circle of woe.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- I prayed for a miracle. I prayed and prayed. The Universe sent me Rhonda Lenair and Life has never been BEtter.
- Time Working / Worked
- It takes time to adjust to BEing without alcohol. Time to find new ways to BE. Time to find out who we really are.
Open HIV
I'll BE Brave and BE the first person to join this group. I AM not ashamed. I had unprotected, drunken sex in the mid 80's. Life went on. I changed my ways. I donated blood for the first and last time in 1996. I then read everything I could about HIV, which wasn't good. Then I prepared to die. Until....I listened to my Light. BElieved it. Lived it. HIV is not a Death sentence, Life is!
Treatments
- Holistic Health Working / Worked
- I am HIV+ for 20+ years and have never taken meds. My health improved greatly once I took control of it away from my doctor and made my own decisions, based on Faith.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- Sometimes there are monsters and fears so great the only person you can trust with them is yourself. I write and write and write. It helps to get it out of your system.
- Acupuncture Somewhat Helpful
- If you find the right acupuncturist the experience is phenomenal. I think I was becoming addicted to it and wish I could afford more treatments.
- Laughter Working / Worked
- Laughter truly is the BEST medicine. If I couldn't Laugh, Life would just not BE worth Living.
- Crying Working / Worked
- Tears would come in waves. Heavy distant screams. Why me, why? I still cry. I'll always cry.
- Time Working / Worked
- It took a long Time to BE able to feel ok about my status. Time to get over guilt, shame and anger. Time is on my side now.
- Prayer Somewhat Helpful
- I used to pray every night to BE cured but that got to BE a LOT of work or I would forget. One of these days....
- LDN - Low Dose Naltrexone Too Soon to Tell
- Started on 10-23-07 no side effects noted as of yet.
- Atripla Not Working
- Whoa, this stuff is sending me for a loop. I'll give it a spin but if things do not get better I'm flushing them down the crapper. 11 days later and I AM DONE taking ATRIPLA! One pill a day is a routine I can commit to, but insanity, lethargy, electric rashes and GOD knows what else, is something I CANNOT!
- Truvada Not Working
- Two days of this med and I am covered in a nast rash and feel like I have needles and pins jabbing me everywhere the rash is. I was ordered to stop it immediately by my doctor.
Open Diverticulitis
Hospitalized in 9-07 for flare up, fever and pain. Not looking forward to adding another community to my page but... I cannot take this lightly so...
Treatments
- Cipro Working / Worked
- 2 weeks of feeling nauseous and diahrea, the fever is gone now anyway.
- High Fiber Diet Working / Worked
- I have always been a HIGH Fiber person that is why this disease is so confusing to me. However, I have given up seeds and nuts which I ate every day.
- Levaquin Working / Worked
- Ugh, rotten med but it cleared the fever anyway though pain still persists.
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