I WANT TO CUT OR DIE
May 5, 2008 12:50am
TO NO ONE IN PARTICULAR- I GUESS WHO EVER BOTHERS TO READ THIS....SORRY FOR ALL OF YOU WHO'VE SENT MESSAGES AND HUGS THAT I HAVE NOT WTITTEN BACK …
im1inhim 
5:00pm, August 2, 2009
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About Me
im1inhim
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About Me
I have struggled with major depression as long as I can remember. I went close to 25 years with no meds and no therapy with suicidal depression. Years of my childhood are blank and suppressed deep in my memory. I suffer with ptsd seizures for years now. Many years I suffered with flashbacks. I was diagnosed with low thyroid back in early 90's. I have been in therapy and on meds now for about 5 years. I have much experience with these struggles and am a good listener and a shoulder to lean on. I would like to help anyone I can who suffers like this.
I have struggled with major depression as long as I can remember. I went close to 25 years with no meds and no therapy with suicidal depression. Years of my childhood are blank and suppressed deep in my memory. I suffer with ptsd seizures for years now. Many years I suffered with flashbacks. I was diagnosed with low thyroid back in early 90's. I have been in therapy and on meds now for about 5 years. I have much experience with these struggles and am a good listener and a shoulder to lean on. I would
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Interests
I like to paint acrylics on canvas, read, share coffee with friends, network with friends online, and listen to music. You can see my other profile at myspace.com/im1inhim or shoutlife.com/im1inhim or imeem.com/im1inhim or email me at im1inhim@yahoo.com ( WHAT YOU NEED TO KNOW TO ENCOURAGE PEOPLE...) People are insecure... give them confidence People like to feel special... sincerely compliment them People are looking for a better tomorrow... show them hope. People need to be understood... listen to them. People lack direction... navigate for them. People are selfish... speak to their needs first. People get downhearted... encourage them. People want to be associated with success... help them win. People desire meaningful relationships... provide community. People seek models to follow... be an example. " FOCUSED ON ETERNITY " (Something to think about...) How we so easily lose that focus. We so often seem to take our eyes off what has eternal value, and tend to things that have earthly value. We should be focused on, and tending to things of eternal value. Nothing else matters. We can't take anything with us. To be pursuing things of earthly value and importance, robs us of what really matters. We still remain discontented because it will never satisfy. Only what has eternal value will ever satisfy. Pursuing the riches of heaven above Satisfies our souls like nothing else does ! "…Set your minds and keep them set on what is above…"
I like to paint acrylics on canvas, read, share coffee with friends, network with friends online, and
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BIG VIRUS COMING, NORTON ANTIVIRUS AND OTHERS ARE GEARING UP FOR IT PLEASE READ!!!!!!!! ASAP
May 2, 2008 4:18am
I checked snopes and it is there. Be careful.This was sent to me by our former MIS guru so I do believe her I checked with Norton Anti-Virus, …
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I'VE LEARNED A COUPLE THINGS ALONG THE WAY...
April 25, 2008 7:37am
On a positive note, I've learned that, no matter what happens, how …
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April 16,08 QUESTIONS ABOUT MY PTSD AND HYPOTHYROIDISM
April 16, 2008 6:42pm
WELL, IT'S BEEN A VERY HARD WEEK . AND ESPECIALLYTHE LAST FEW DAYS...I HAVE BEEN HAVING A LOT OF TROUBLE WITH DIZZINESS, ANXIETY, PTSD AND MY …
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in case anyone cares
April 10, 2008 6:26am
birthmothers day is May 12. and I'm a birthmom. My birth son turned 3 on March 4th. It's soo hard. I don't think many people understand …
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Hugbook
Little Love
Hey sweetie. How you doing? I am sending thoughts that you have a good day today. Love and hugs.
I’m With You
I LOVE YOU TOO AND I'M HERE 2 SO JUST TALK TO ME 2 AND I'M SURE I'LL TALK BACK...LOTS OF LOVE YOUR WIFE
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Hug
Hey hon. Hope you are doing okay. I am thinking good thoughts for you today. Hugs.
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Little Love
i love you baby...thank you for understanding and giving me all the support i need...luv ruth
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Hug
thank you i love you just can't show my pain right now!
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have struggled with major depression most all of my life.. I lived with suicidal depression untreated with no therapy for 25 years. I have only been in therapy and on meds for the last 5 years. I would love to have other friends for help and support and to whom I could give feedback about my experiences.
Treatments
- Celexa Working / Worked
- This is working in combination with my other meds with no bad side effects.
- Effexor Working / Worked
- This is working very well along with my other meds. However, once my dr. upped my dose and I became very suicidal!! once back to normal dose, I was ok...
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- sometimes I am too pessimistic for this!!!lol
- Prozac Not Working
- used briefly and did not work
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- very helpful
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- they do not know... they do not care...
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- It worked... strange dreams... but I am off of it now because I don't want to depend on any drug to get me to sleep...
- Wellbutrin Somewhat Helpful
- Didn't help enough...no bad side effects
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- when I do write, it seems to help, but I'm not very faithful at it.
- Zoloft Not Working
- did not work at all...no bad side effects
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- Very helpful for my high anxiety and ptsd
Close Hypothyroidism
I was diagnosed with low thyroid back in early 90's. I started with .05 dose and every 6 months dose was increased. I suffer from many of the medical problems this causes. I am now on 224 mcg. a day and still feel I need an increase...
Treatments
- Synthroid Working / Worked
- I don't know. No bad side effects... but I am not seeing a boost in energy or any weight loss. I know if I skip it , I cannot get out of bed.
Open Self-Injury
I discovered the relief of SI back in the early 90's. I used that coping mechanism for several years. I had no meds or therapy at the time. It has been a few years since I have done it.
Treatments
- Outpatient Treatment Program Working / Worked
- I am in out patient therapy now and it does help a little.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I have been in therapy now for a few years and it does help a little..
- Talking Working / Worked
- this helps if it is with the right person.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I have high anxiety and ptsd due to my past abuse. I have been experiencing ptsd related seizures for 7 years or so -only recently found out what they were from neurological specialists. Years of my life are blank to my memory and the ptsd is a result of severe abuse that I have suppressed in my memory. thank God . Also experienced 2 rapes in later life and have not dealt with it at all.
Treatments
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- seemed to help some...I would draw my nightmares and flashbacks.
- Effexor Working / Worked
- seems to help. no bad side effects
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Seems to help a little
- Reading Working / Worked
- works to get my mind off of things, but only when I have enough consentration.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- depends on who I talk to...Many things I absolutely will not talk about..
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- reduces my anxiety and shortens my ptsd seizures.
Open Adoption
Type: Open AdoptionI am a birthmom with a partially open adoption. I had to give him to a wonderful family due to my mental illness, and non-epileptic seizures believed from neurologists to stem from my ptsd. would like to hear from other birthmoms. so far I have been grieving alone on this and my therapist has no idea how to counsel me on this issue.
Open Shyness
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- wonderful
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- somewhat helpful, except i hold too much in....
- Self-help Working / Worked
- SARK is fave author of self-help books....happy socks, comedy, good sense of humor...works well....
Open Family & Friends of Bipolar
one of my best friends is bipolar and i am the only one who is willing to support and understand her. I would like friends who also deal with loved ones and friends who have bipolar.
Open Cocaine Addiction & Recovery
I have been using this starting last December dibbing and dabbing... and now a few times a week... My partner has used for years and years...Still a "newbie" but know about where this can take a person ...all I know is I love it...even though maybe we're not suppossed to admit that...That's why ppl use it, right?
Treatments
- Humex Working / Worked
Open Heroin Addiction & Recovery
My partner is a heroine user/addict for years and years...multiple rehabs and stops and starts...would appreciate any support from others who have partners with this addiction. Would like to be friends with anyone-addicts or friends and family of dope users--who can offer encouragement and support. thanks
