Journal

Today seems to be an okay day! I actually feel pretty good and my headaches have seemed to have gotten better.
All I can say, is that I am so thankful for having this website to turn too, everyone on here is so nice and helpful, it makes me feel so much better knowing this!
I am going back to work on wednesday, and I am a little frustrated b/c since I got sick and was out they have demoted me at work, only haven't filled my position yet, so I am feeling sort of sad that way, but at the same time, I wont let that stop me, I already have an interview with another company that I feel is a better company to work for anyways.
As far as my boyfriend goes, we are still together, things seem to have gotten a little better. I am not sure he is the one I will be with forever, but latly it seems to be okay!

Sorry I have not been on in a while. A lot of things have been going on. I have been sick for the past few weeks and unable to work, so I am trying to get healthy and get back very soon, especially since the financial aspect of it is starting to kick in. My boyfriend left me and went to a hotel last weekend, I was confident it was finally over I took the key from him, and I was done. Then I caved and let him back in the next day, and now, again, we are having nothing but problems. I tried to say that it was me with the problem, but I realize now more than ever it is not me, it is him, and he is the one that is making me so miserable, so now I need to deal with it while healing myself and then when I get back to work, take things to a whole new prospective!

Today I ended up having my boyfriend move out of my house. We have been together for almost two years, and after getting divorced almost five years ago and finding R three years later the past two years seemed to give me inspiration of hope. We had our good times and bad, and I really did feel for a while there that he was the one. Then, over the past few months things have gotten real bad, he has said some really hurtful things, and today was the last straw. We got into an argument and he threw my son (not his biological child) at a wall, mind you the boy is 6, and then he threw me into a dresser. He admitted to saying he felt bad over throwing my son and mentioned nothing of how he treated me. I told him to leave and he wouldnt so I brought a friend over and got a sitter for my son so he would not have to endure the act. He was beligerant but after a few hurtful words finally packed an overnight bag and left. I know it is going to be hard, because he still has to come back and get the rest of his stuff, and I am so torn because I do care for him yet I know this relationship will go nowhere and after what he did today, I need to protect my child. I just hope I can be successful in this new journey of rebuilding myself again!