Journal Entry for October 28, 2009
October 28, 2009 1:32pm
Progress
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Goal End Date is Jun 11, 10 198 more days.
amyb26
3:11pm, September 6, 2009
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About Me
amyb26
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About Me
bipolar, schizo-affective, fibromyalgia, carpal tunnel syndrome, obsessive compulsive disorder, poly substance dependancy, eating disorder, self injury.
bipolar, schizo-affective, fibromyalgia, carpal tunnel syndrome, obsessive compulsive disorder, poly substance dependancy, eating disorder, self injury.
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Interests
i love going outdoors. hiking, fishing, you name it. i really like angry rock/metal music. faves are avenged sevenfold and bullet for my valentine. my husband and 3 year old son are awesome and i dont know what i would do without them.
i love going outdoors. hiking, fishing, you name it. i really like angry rock/metal music. faves are
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Journal
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make my bro in law go away!!
October 27, 2009 12:54am
so im trying to get my brother in law out of my house and its not going well. at least he if finally trying to get a job. my husband told him 2 …
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losing weight
October 16, 2009 4:01pm
well i guess im ok. i have a confession. i started using suboxone again. i did it because stopping narcotics causes weight gain and so do half the …
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my life
September 18, 2009 3:19pm
so i guess im ok today. kinda messed up. i got some suboxone the other day and its made me sick! i cant believe i used to take that shit all the …
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
I was diagnosed bipolar after my first hospitalization about 4 years ago. i have been in a mental health facility 4 times and have tried 20 different meds. my husband is very supportive but i think it would help to talk with others who know how i feel and share what i have been going through.
Treatments
- Ativan Somewhat Helpful
- hospital gave it to me to help with detox. helped then.
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- had group therepy in the hospital.
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- currently taking it makes me nauseated but seems to be working
- Remeron Working / Worked
- made me have wild vivid dreams and i couldnt handle it because my tortured little mind couldnt take it. it was like my brain never shut off.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- it takes a really high dose but it is the only thing other than xanax that helps me sleep. it also works for stress during the day.
- Thorazine Working / Worked
- it took me about a month to get used to it but now that im stable i dont have anything bad to say about it. it works!
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- did not work at all. i wanted to smoke like a freight train. isnt it supposed to have the opposite effect? also got very depressed.
- Zyprexa Not Working
- didnt do anything but make me more manic and made me feel like my skin was on fire.
- Gabitril Not Working
- didnt work at all
- Neurontin Not Working
- made me incredibly depressed
- Zoloft Not Working
- made me feel like my blood was bursting through my skin
- Prozac Not Working
- didnt work at all. made things worse
Close Anxiety
bipolar with extreme anxiety and racing thoughts. voices in my head that stress me out. need a xanax but they wont prescribe me that. just a bunch of other crazy shit
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- worked but not as good as xanax
- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- works for about 5 minutes
- BuSpar Working / Worked
- not as good as xanax
- Klonopin Not Working
- made me crazy and i ended up in the hospital. didnt give a crap about anything!
- Lexapro Not Working
- made my blood feel like it was bursting through my skin
- Paxil Not Working
- another one that made it feel like blood was bursting through my skin
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- not capable of positive thinking
- Remeron Not Working
- 30mg = crazy crazy dreams! felt like my brain never turned off during sleep. too overwhelming.
- St. John\'s Wort Working / Worked
- Valium Working / Worked
- works but they wont prescribe it to me cause i have addiction issues.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- works like a charm but they wont give it to me cause of drug issues
- Zoloft Not Working
- did nothing for stress. made it feel like my blood was itching
- Thorazine Somewhat Helpful
- currently taking 200mg. seems to work but only cause im tired all the time.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- currently taking. this one really helps with sleep in high doses.
Open Schizophrenia
i always have voices in my head that are overwhelming. it sounds like im standing in the middle of a crowded room and everyones screaming at me at the same time. i get confused a lot cause i lose my thoughts cause i dont know which voice is mine.
Treatments
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
i am also bipolar and schizo-affective. have some characteristics of OCD and want to learn more.
Treatments
- Paxil Not Working
- made me feel like my blood was bursting out of my skin. extreme anxiety issues.
- Remeron Not Working
- caused dreams that were to vivid to handle. it felt like my brain never slowed down as it was running on overdrive when i was awake and asleep.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- best sleeping pill ever! it also helps dull the voices in my head.
- Zoloft Not Working
- another one that made me feel like my blood was bursting through my skin.
- Thorazine Considering
- hasnt had much effect on OCD
Open Prescription Drug Abuse
i would rather not broadcast it. im embarrased.
Open Self-Injury
i burn myself with stuff when i cant handle life
Treatments
- Outpatient Treatment Program Not Working
- nothing is working
- Talking Not Working
- talk to my husband. he takes me to the hospital
Open Carpal Tunnel Syndrome
i have had carpal tunnel for several years. it hurts all the time. im a waitress and i cant stand it sometimes. i have to work with a brace on or with a warm towel tied tightly around my hand and wrist. i would love to work doing anything else but i make good money and cant afford a pay cut. i have mental health issues also and am in need of support and understanding.
Treatments
- Ibuprofen Not Working
- might as well take a sugar pill
- Wrist Splint Somewhat Helpful
- it works for a little while at first but it becomes less and less helpful as time goes on.
