sophi1960's Journal

Day Three

Saw the Doc on Day 3.  He says my flu is now pneumonia. Got some strong antibiotics for that and trying an inhaler for chest congestion. Also - I will get a CT scan to check the size of the tumor and for any growth. I am encouraged by that, it will  answer some of my questions. 

When I got home all my energy was gone and I slept the rest f the day.  

I still had questions I wanted to ask the Doctor - but there just wasn't enough time.  

Anger.

If I had all the money in the world I wouldn't get to see another doctor for a month, there is a Doctor shortage here. There is no one left to see.  

I am left feeling insignificant.  

Day four

The inhaler is helping with breathing. My fever is still 102 so I still feel really dopey. I take a Tylenol  and it drops but then in a few hours its back. Frustrating. 

Logging in and finding two new hug notices is very positive. Total strangers wanting to send me encouragement. The world is not such a bad place after all.  Thanks guys.  * HUG BACK* 

Learning, searching the net - I ofund this today about vision loss -

http://www.revoptom.com/handbook/SECT54a.HTM

"Since tumor growth is usually asymmetrical, the field loss between two eyes is also typically asymmetrical. "

That's interesting because I am loosing vision in my left eye. Maybe this is related to how the tumor is growing?

I know that two summers ago I could stand on my front porch and look across the parking lot. I could see clearly the shape of the cars at the end of the lot.  Today, when I look with my left eye it's all just fuzzy patches of colour. The right is still OK. 

Took the Dr. Phill test.

Got 42 -

41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the centre of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out. 

That sounds very affirming and positive. I think I'll read that again from time to time.  

5pm  - Had more energy this afternoon which was nice, unfortunately, more pain too. My back and sides hurt too much to get up and down the stairs without a lot of effort. Not giving up though, I really want to get some laundry done today. It is a simple pleasure, but I really enjoy having clean sox and a fresh t-shirt.