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nikkimc41 
I have been pretty sure I have been bipolar for some time. My erratic behavior, stretches of insomnia, reckless actions, drinking, depression, mild hallucinations-you name it.......I have just started treatment with Lithium and I am scared about a lot of things-loss of my personality (although I am not always sure why, I can be a nut!!) weight gain (always vain) what if this doesn't work? And maybe some sick part of me has liked being sick?? I may have to start standing on my own two feet? What if I fail? I've had so many broken relationships in my life-was it a character flaw? My disease? Both? When I meet new people, like to date, do I mention that I am bipolar, was institutionalized after a suicide attempt and that I'm on a variety of drugs I have no idea how they will affect me? I need some help and advice from people who have gone through this. I am just starting to come out of a three week mania, and I am grateful for the relief I am feeling-but scared about the future.....
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I, like you was diagnosed after being institutionalized last year for a break-down/suicide attempt. It is a very scary thing. I have just recently really accepted the fact that I do have a mental Illness. That too is very scary. I am taking a couple of different meds right now but they have seem to lost their luster. My Dr. is an idiot and I am desperately looking for a new one. I wish I had some answers for you all I can say is that this is the hand we were dealt, we can't change it but we can embrace it and keep moving forward. Just know that you are not alone and it will get better.
stcygril
Hang in there.
My daughter is in her 2nd week of mania.
It's terrible, she is so frightened.
The Dr. has her on Depakote, Abilify, and Zyprexa.
She is comming down slow.
But it is very scarry.
Trust your Dr.
Have other people observe your behavior, eating, sleeping and mood swing problems.
Write down what they observe and then report it to your Dr.
This is how the Dr. gets to put you on the right medication and the proper mg.
Kordana