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christaO 
1:03pm, February 13, 2009
It's funny how it creeps up just when you think it's gone and BAM- tears all over for no reason. I have really been feeling okay but the past three nights out of blue I just get really sad for my Keira and ache for her. Maybe it is that I now have a baby belly and the pregnancy is more "real". The pain has been so raw this past week it's like I am back to when i first lost her. I am fine one minute and then hysterical. I am not getting down on myself for being an emotional mess b/c I know after what I have been through how can I not be. Although I am scared and nervous about this new baby and feel surprisingly calm on the inside. My mind thinks what if this happens and what if that happens but for the most part I have been keeping the negative feelings at bay.
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wow! you described every emotion i have to the T!!
luvmyangelc
Every stage of this pegnancy I have thought of what I was doing and feeling when pregnant with Faith. Now that the end is near I'm really thinking of Faith.I agree having the belly really makes it all so real and the memories flood in. I know that for me I've always compared my pregnancies, but usually not for sad reasons. We have so much to be happy for yet so much to sad for. hang in there. You are ding great. Hugs, Cynthia
crwtom
Sorry you having been feeling down. I think those emotions will come and go like that for the rest of our lives (those not as often as in the start). Sending you peace. Hugs.
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