hnelson's Journal

Well I guess proverbs become proverbs cause they are true on some level.  The one that marks today's doctor's appointment is HURRY UP AND WAIT!!!  Today marks 37 weeks of pregnancy and it's definitely a good thing we made it this far....but man alive I was a little disappointed today!

At 30 weeks we discover my cervix has shortened to just under a centimeter in length and is funnelling on the inside. Baby is head down and in launch position - Full time bedrest prescribed with Anti-contraction meds as needed.

At 33 weeks we discover my cervix has Dialated to a 1 but is the same length.  Baby is still headdown and in launch position.  Bedrest is continued but now I'm on the Anti-contraction meds every 6 hours regardless of need to make SURE we make it to 35 weeks.  Docs say, "you could very well be one of those women who get off bedrest and go into labor immediately at 35 weeks".  So we, in the meantime, we buy some preemie things (clothes/diapers) and begin prepping ourselves for very likely early delivery.  We move up the baby shower.....etc. 

At 35 weeks we get off bedrest but continue "staying down" as much as we can just praying to make it past our baby shower and final baby classes.  Baby is still head down in launch position and has now DROPPED and kicks my pelvic bones and head butts my bladder.

At 36 weeks, we get our baby shower, finish our last baby class, and start to sonder what all the fuss was about.  I'm still resting during the day a bit, but not NEAR as "restricted" as I was before and we're still hoping to just hold the baby inside until July 1.  Baby is still headdown and in launch position.

At 37 weeks, today, they check me and tell me that there is NO change in my cervix at all.  Still a fingertip dilated, still 1 cm short, baby still head down and in launch position, and not even leaking fluid.  STILL!  Doc then says, " you are good to go for at least another few weeks".  ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME!!!!!!!

After all that fuss and worry.....all the bedrest and meds....all the panicked preemie purchases....and all the HASSLE and worry.....this kid will easily skate to full term or beyond now?!?!?!?!!?!?

Don't get me wrong, I'm so very glad that he's healthy and growing and strong.  I'm SO glad he wasn't pre-term and will have the best chance to be strong at birth now.  THAT IS THE BEST!  But he's dropped, I hurt....EVERYWHERE....can barely walk cause of the stretching in my ligaments and getting in and out of the car or bed is becoming comical.  My back is killing me since he's settled on my sciatic nerve again and frankly I'm FREAKING STARVING cause the little parasite is taking everything.  I eat like a truck driver these days out of sheer desperation and I'm still loosing weight even though the baby is growing.  I now have to start Ensure shakes twice a day to supplement ME while he continues growing and frankly I was hoping that my exam would show SOME cervical changes to justify all the worry and wait.

But no.

Hurry up and go on bedrest

Hurry up and get on those meds

Hurry up and get the nursery ready

Hurry up and finish the showers/classes

Hurry Hurry Hurry Hurry Hurry Hurry Hurry Hurry

AND WAIT!