christinef's Journal

I can't seem to make the best of my situation no matter what i try. I think i am just exhausted in general, and being a hypochondriac doesn't help..... yeah sacramento is unhealthy for me, allergies everywhere, my family hovering over me is NOT ok, it's very annoying in fact, because i feel like ic an't get anywhere, no progress is being made what so ever, and i am tired of it, i know 2 more months. and something really irritating happened, so i tried to drop ballet a few months ago and it didn't work, so i ended up not showing up for a month, i checkmy grade today and my teacher gave me a freakin incomplete, and i really have no time to come back and take care of that, i don't have time to make up all the classes i missed especially after i started interning and all that stuff, i really don't have the gas money or energy to drive to sacramento city college, i hate living so far away from everything....i don't know what to do.  i need to clear my nose and congested head and throat too...too many allergens here i always feel sick, then of course when i feel sick i automatically ASSUME it's hiv or something worse.....maybe i shouldn't be going into this relationship? i'm tired of eating when i get depressed. i wanna go back to my normal weight and stop having my parents shove food down my throat all the time....uhg i can't stand my family right now i need to get the fuck out cause i can't take it