Journal

I feel I have accomplished my goal now is time to start another 0ne

I figured it was time for me to use the ladder that was extended to me to climb up out of the rut that I have been in for almost 9 months now. Life has been a virtual roller coaster ride the situation wth my wifes present incarceration which comes to an end in a 6 1/2 months (thank God) my situation dealing with the VA (I did however win my SSI case another thanks to God) and my problems with my meds which we seem to have finally gotten right with the exception that it has my sleeping patterns squirrelly have as I said made the past year a real roller coaster ride and again thank you God. I want you all to know its good to be back!

I have run into a situation that has put most of us in a sour mood it is because some people just can't leave well enough alone and mind there own damn business and don't take into consideration who they are harming or the price that person will or could pay for there meddling. I want to go and tell this person just what I think of them and people like them but that could very well cause more problems. I do know this because I know how some of my alters will act she had better stay clear of us I cannot and honestly do not want to keep my mouth shut about it. The thing that really pisses us off is it is people like me that went to war and sacrificed lives and time along with blood and our souls so people from other countries could come here and live without the fear of persercution but to turn around and stab you in the back is just not right. I am not the type of person to say that you have no right to live here this is Gods world but we have to live with mans laws. If the world were run my way you would be able to go where ever you want but that does not mean you have the right to hurt other people. Today I am trying to put my past & my memories behind me and what I mean by that is if I confront this woman I will make her feel like 2 cents my tongue will become a double edge sword and cut her to ribbons I won't raise my hand to her but I will cut deep into her soul and then I become that person that I have always hated it does not happen often but it has happened in the past and I do not wish to travel down that path again Part of the reason I wrote this is to see the words & to see the feelings instead of just feeling them and because I know someone here will read this and will say something or pray for us or both