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kellymc 
12:58pm
My brother is coming to visit today and although I love him to bits,he's gonna be smoking too! Why does nearly everyone close to me have to smoke?! I'm feeling soooo crap and irritable that I hate everyone who smokes at the moment cos I'm so jealous! I KNOW I'm doing the right thing but I feel like I'm being punished for trying to be healthy while they get to enjoy smoking. 
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hmmmm well he's gone and I managed to resist but I still hate him hehehe!!!!
kellymc
I know EXACTLY what you mean..Everytime I see my friends smoking I think it is not fair..but what is not fair is that they are so addicted they don't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Jen1971
Yeah I guess your right.What's really pissing me off now is that my mam has arranged a garden party tonight for Liam (my bro) coming home. I really don't feel up to going cos I know it's gonna want to make me smoke more and to be honest I'm just feeling totally down in the dumps.(also - a garden party?Am I 90 years old now?) However when I voiced this to my mam,all I got was "awww Kelly he only comes home every now and again so just come for a bit!" So now I've got to go just to keep everyone else happy as per usual - forget that I'm struggling like hell and don't want to see anyone cos i hate everyone at the moment and am not in a sociable mood. Wow I'm not usually so grouchy but I need to vent and if I vent to anyone at home, all I get is "aw is it your hormones!" ROOOOOAAAAARRRRRRR!!!!
kellymc
i hear your roar Kelly and you make me smile the way you feel is just normal when you quit, you are probally craving so everything and everyone gets on your nerves, espesially anyone close to you,
'but the happy thing is this will pass and you will look back in time and be so happy, the nicodemon is testing you but your doing great right now, even if your roaring, keep it up your doing well and freedom and happiness is well on the way
caz16
Hang in there Kelly, get some quit time behind you and believe me you won't be jealous of people smoking you'll feel pity for them.....come on girl keep yourself proud and make your son proud....you can do it!!!!
Shell7
The same thing happened to me! I was feeling the same as you, but ended up going to keep up 'appearances'. You know what? It ended up being a piece of cake! At first I found myself enjoying the smell. Then a few seconds later said to myself 'peww, this stinks. I can't believe I smelled like that'. I walked away, went inside, and prayed like a bitch while sitting on the bowl for the day to end quickly. It was damn hard, but well worth it. XOXO
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