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kellymc 
24 minutes ago
Sat here on my mam's laptop with a glass of wine and in tears.Sounds so stupid but I've just got home to some stupid wankers putting in a new heating system for me.They've ripped half my walls apart, there are piles of black shit all over my cream carpet, they've blown all my electric and are basically stood there like a couple of morons looking clueless and nervous whenever I ask them a question. If I didn't leave when i did, i swear I would be arrested for grevious bodily harm. My mam has just offered me a menthol fag and I nearly had a bit but haven't so i suppose there's one positive. Having to stay out of my own home tonight and go and get my work stuff in the morning. Really ready to blow. Worst thing is I've got another set of workmen in tomoro measuring up for a new kitchen when you can't even see the bloody kitchen! It's not even my home,it's a work site. RRRROOOOOAAAAAARRRRRRR.(wanted to put something worse but don't want to offend anyone!)
I HATE MORONS!!!
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*saving this post in my journal to pick me up if I'm ever feeling negative about quit*
Really felt the need to do a post today as I’m feeling so positive about the non smoking thing! We held a surprise 50th birthday party for my auntie last night (which was mint by the way!) As usual, Kelly drank most of the bar dry and danced her little socks off most of the night in her 6 inch stilettos hehe! Anyway, back to the point, since my quit, I’ve always felt the need to stand outside with the smokers during a night out - not to smoke, but I guess for comfort and that familiar feeling. I always feel like I’m missing out on something if I don’t go out. It’s ridiculous really, standing outside in the freezing cold just so I can be among my smoking friends and secretly wishing I could have one. However, last night, I was in the taxi on my way home (with a huuuuge plate of sandwiches and stuff that I’d pinched from the buffet!) when I suddenly realised that I hadn’t been out once during the night. Not only that, but the thought had not even entered my head! I feel soooo happy that I had a night like that, it really does show that all the hard work and misery you can go through at times really can be worth it!
Sooo, I just want to say to anyone who is struggling or having a hard time of it, please stick at it, it really doesn’t take long ‘til you see that big shining light at the end of the tunnel!
Anyway people, I’m off to make myself a big greasy bacon sarnie to soak up excess alcohol and watch trash tv whilst nursing my hangover! MINT!! Have a class, smoke free weekend everyone xx
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thats great Kel, you are doing so well, and you still can have a great time.
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Way to go Kelly! You've met the party test and passed with flying colours. I'm so proud of you. Hugs, Beth
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Wow Kelly, I know just how you feel. I was in a situation Sat nite with many smokers and you know what......... I felt sorry for them!
I know most of them want to quit and I did it or should I say WE did it. I am so proud of you and thanks for our togetherness through this.
I have talked to a new DS friend just quitting and want to give back and help her on her first day because I have been so blessed. And yes Im up at 4 am again, sucky ribs hurt..... 5 more weeks to go and healed. oxoxoxox Cindi
Decided to go out on Sunday even though I'm only 5 days into my quit. I know people may advise to try and stay away from temptation,which I can understand but the way I see it after reading Allen Carr's advice is why punish myself by staying in away from friends and good company (and wine hehe!) I really feel strong enough not to smoke.I know I may get a little nostalgic from time to time over the cigs but at the end of the day,I want to enjoy my new,smoke free life and prove to myself that I'm strong enough to resist temptation and not have to hide away.
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It will be a good test. If you think you are strong enough, go for it. Maybe write down beforehand what you will do if you do get the urge. Thanks for the words of support in S&R. And congrats to you on day number 5.
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So what's this have to do with a bank holiday sunday?
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Kelly I know this has been a trigger for you in the passed but it doesn't have to be......I hope you go armed with a smoke-free buddy. Personally I think the challenge can be really powerful. I remember going to a huge party atmosphere just a week or more into my quit....bonfire by the river's edge, celebrating friends' renewal of wedding vows....lots of wine....food... and smokers.....I had my best friend with me and we had a blast! Cheers and enjoy knowing you can lay your head down that evening having not smoked, you go girl!!!!
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I went clubbing with my best mate on day 6 of my quit...had a fab night wasn't even tempted.Go for it!! x
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CJ,Bank Holiday Sunday is basically an excuse in most of England to go to the pub and get absolutely wellied 'cos everyone's off work on the Monday! They're always a mint atmosphere and I basically didn't want to miss out.
Shell,yeah,my friend Ali quit smoking around 2 weeks ago so we'll be there to keep an eye on each other.And yeah,it's good to know that we don't need the cigs to have a good time.
Trace,it's good now that the smoking ban is in England too,especially in nightclubs cos once you're up dancing and stuff,the last thing you want to do is leave the dancefloor,get some stupid wrist tag on so you can go outside away from all the fun!Glad you enjoyed clubbing without them.
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Stay stronf my friend and have a blow out of a time there. Fun.
Hugs,Mayberry
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And Kelly doesnt it just suck the thought that the nicodemon has run your life? I think we've all had enough of that BS. We can handle our own lives thanks very much!! Hugs
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Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry everythings such a mess. That can be such a downer. Lord knows they've got to clean it all up before they leave. You're a strong woman to resist that cig when you did. I'm so proud of you. Hope things get better soon. Big hugs, Beth
lilje
i'm so sorry you have had such a bad day kelly. they should be responsibile for cleaning all that up which includes having your carpets cleaned. i'm very proud of you for resisting that cigarette. i'm around if you need me.
sambod
Shame on your momma for offering that cig! Good for you for refusing it! I know it seems easier said than done but try and visualize the end result....a new kitchen, WOW how nice.....Carpet clean, messes clean you don't smoke and crying is good. Tons of love girly!
xo
Shell7
Oh im sorry things are so crappy but im so proud you didnt smoke xoxox
rebel7
oh no - sorry your day turned out so bad. Home repairs/remodeling can be so stressful when they go badly. I'm so proud of you for turning down that smoke. Hang in there and remember our motto ... NOPE!!
deb2210
The one i would be annoyed with is your mam. She should have been yelling at them for you instead of trying to give you a bloody fag. You want me to come over and beat 'em up, i reckon me and zeus could really scare 'em. Seriously, read it back and see how strong you have become. You are one incredible lady and they will meet your terms, i have no doubts.
ozziequitter
oops forgot to add my zillion hugs to ya.
ozziequitter
Thankyou so much everyone,had some sleep and feeling much better.It'll clean and plaster eh? Wait 'til they do my kitchen - better not be the same people!!!!
kellymc
Hey girl, you didnt smoke though!!!! So proud of you.
Cindihdlady