flouncy's Journal

ok so i had my endo appt on tues and he said that everything is still the same, so new bloods and scan for the start of next year. which is good news. from going to the gym im feeling so much better now.  baby questions i had lots of, which he answered every one of them fairly. he said that i wouldnt lose my funding as its a drug that i need and works really well with me. so that is great. also he said that the acro will not just explode and things get very bad again, which to me is frightening and thatis a big reason why i didnt want to go ahead. im so scared of the tumour growing real big and the acro taking over my life again. i found it hard the first time and still now some days, but to go through the really bad days again,whilst pregnant. i really dont think i could do that. so with this fear some what lifted for me im feeling a bit more optamistic. he said that tests would be done almost all the time to check im ok, like bloods and two diff scans one for my head and one for baby. which gives me more comfort that i will be looked after and not forgotten abaout untill its too late. so thinking about it myself and my husband have decided to wait and see how we feel in the new year as at the moment we dont feel its a big need for a baby as we have two children already.

hands have gone down and i am now wearing a engagement ring my husband bought for me 7 years ago that i havent been able to wear for the past 6 years. so i am so happy about that, he was shocked when he saw the ring on my finger :) also my feet have shrunk which is brilliant i now own a pair of deep red sexy shoes which im so glad my husband bought for me, but i have to wait for x-mas untill i can wear them :(   lol  i went from a size 5 to a size 8 with the acro and now im back at a size 6 so happy although i now can not wear my boots as they are too big, small sacrifice as i now have an excuse to buy new shoes!!! i was so shocked when my friend said to me try these on, i forgot she was a 5 and a hlf and guess what they fit me!!!!!! people at the hospital have commented on how healthy i nopw look and how much they can see it in my face aswell that ,y face has changed. im so happy i cant believe that although its taken a year and a hlaf, acro can be reversed if caught early enough!!!! so if anyone is reading this that has been caught early, im proof that you can get back to how was before just stick to what the endo tells you to and you will be fine. ii have been waiting and lost hope so many times that nothing was going to change but this year bam , yeah its taken a yera and a half to see teh difference but ill tell you tis it is so worthj the wait and somewhat patience of mine...lol (im very inpatient!) the endo said it will be harder now to lose weoght so stick to it and dont just think you will lose weight quick like evryone else. so he said 1lb a month is fine. to which my reply was 1lb a month is that it i was thinking that a week if not more, he told me not to be so hard on myself. to which i actually had to think and yes i am too hard on myself to lose weight but once you have been real big and fat you want to do as much as you can to get back to the way you used to be and will stop at nothing to get there, i suppose you can say i got a little obsessed with trying to lose weight. which is not a good thing.

i hope all my friends are ok i havent been on ds again fior a little while, so busy with schools gyms and hospitals and doctors. oh and people crashing in to my car twice in one weeek. i have haad the worst two weeks ever. both of my kids ending up in hospital one with an earing piercing their neck at school and the other with croup and not being able to breath (he is ok now, he is on steroids to keep his air ways open more which is working great) my injection yesterday which has come up in a hand sized lump which i need to get checked out and is bruised to hell, after a year and a hlaf i didnt think i would get a reaction this bad! right im now going as i think im starting to talk gogglygook....lol hope your not too bored!