Join Now
imalittlebumblebee 
7:51pm, May 6, 2009
so it will be a year tommorrow...a year since i quit smoking and then on the 18th;a year since i lost my vocal cords to cancer...bittersweet is my feelin...too bad i didnt get the strength to quit before i got cancer,but thank GOD i have survived this far...i really have "been thru it"as my mom says;and i feel lucky to have come out the other side(a bit bruised and battle-weary)but i AM on the upswing...heart surgery is behind me now and hopefully the residual effects of phneumonia wont keep me feeling weak for much longer...i want to get back to LIVING..instead of being in combat mode against my various ailments...in other words...im sick of being sick!!!but...today:i am proud...proud that i can say that it has been a year since i smoked..unbelievable...if i can do it,well anyone can!!!
Comments
this morning i logged on to DS
and read about recoverywomans dad,who is having lung surgery today due to smoking...and i was so struck by the realization of the destruction that tobacco causes in so many peoples lives.i thought about the phone calls i make to;or get from;my mom every morning(she is 16 hrs away driving time)and i hear her heavy breathing ang terrible cough...she has been a smoker for 50 years...and i agonize over the thoughts of what may be in store for her..just as she cried when she learned of my cancer...and yet.......this nicodemon still has its grip on my mom...on so many people...when i think of the lives it has left in ruin...well iam torn between rage and anguish....i pray for recoverywoman...her family,and all the souls out there trying to do battle with a monster that leaves its footprint on so many lives...GOD help us all .we will need it.
Comments
-
And that's just the tip of that Titanic iceberg. I refer folks needing shock therapy to help them quit to whyquit.com
-
Bless your heart Bumble, my dad just left saying to me, "you look so much younger since you quit these damn cigarettes" as he lit one up coughing along the way, I dread the beast that may await him. Yeh Jim, whyquit's a good place to refer!
-
I am continuing my "homework" assignment from Shell7.
Almost all of my elder family members died from Emphysema. My Dad, and his two sisters. My mother's
brother. I was diagnosed in 1999 at age 43. I quit
smoking immediately and was quit 5 years. Then, a stressful event, and I thought I would have just ONE.
This battle has gone on for the last four years.
Even had a heart attack in December of 2008.
Emphysema has weakened my heart as my lungs are scarred and can not do their job, so my heart has
to work overtime. I will keep reading your posts.
Thank you so much.
so it almost seems as if i am destined to never get my new valve...its been one delay after another(secretly i think a tiny part of me is releaved)my heart surgeon will not even schedule it now until all my dental work is done...i and being on medicaide has not helped that one bit!! red tape and waiting for approvals....waiting,waiting,waiting...meanwhile i am shorter of breathe and tire so easily....today i had to stop in the middle of windexing the bathroom mirror!!! its kind of hard to accept this as i have always been tough and hardworking....im a carpenter for goodness sake,i ride horses and throw bales and it was not that long ago i won an arm-wrestling trophy(ok,ok...it was in 1988,but let me honk my horn a little!!)it just seems like time is flying by me and i cant jump in....even if i had the surgery today,with recovery time:i dont know if im gonna be able to get a garden in this year either. i dont know;maybe im just feeling a bit sorry for myself today...the weather has been so cold and dreary...i need some sunshine...
Comments
-
It was so good to hear from you.... Thanks for the update. Prayers and Blessings for you.... Sandy
-
One day at a time, really good to hear from you and I think of you often and send my prayers.....(I'll picture you building birdhouses puting in a huge garden and riding bare back this Spring! Hang in there....
Shell
-
My dentist recently informed me that bad teeth cause
heart problems; and I should really get my teeth fixed. Um?? Two years ago, she quoted me $8000.
I am on SS disability with Emphysema. So, I went
to a clinic for the poor, and my brother loaned me
the money to have dental work done. It was around
$3000. I am still paying my brother every month,
a small payment, and will be for the next three years. Now, after my heart attack, the dentist says
the work I had done was inappropriate (shabby, cheap,
etc.). Well, that is all I could afford. I was the
only caucasion in the dental clinic for the extremely
poor. LOL It was funny. What am I to do? I so
admire you, for making it through the cancer; quitting smoking; then on to heart surgery. I wish
I had 1 10th of your courage.
-
I'm going through a similar situation in that my doctor for some reason won't schedule my Open Heart surgery.
Past Entries
| August 2008 |
|
Friday, 8/22
|
|
May 2008 |
Sunday, 5/04
|
|
April 2008 |
Friday, 4/04
|
|
Tuesday, 4/01
|
Glad u are stating to feel better, and soon be 100 percent!!! 1 rough year down and MANY,MANY years ahead a smoke free LIVING
Joanna
joanna2006
What a year you've had! I remember so well the first time when you showed up here at DS. You and your story and sharing it with us has saved my quit so many times and I thank you for that. I hope you will feel 100% less a few battle scars soon and be back full swing into doing what you love to do. I look at bird houses here at our house and think of you. Keep on keeping on.
Love and hugs to you,
Shell
Shell7
Congrats on ONE YEAR OFF CIGARETTS!!!!!!! Love and Blessings to you (it sure has been a trying year for you)
Sandy JD
Congratulations for your one year quit. And here's to getting out of combat mode and into living mode!
Beesley
Can I call you "Ima" or "Bee"? Maybe "Greatlady" would be more appropriate. 365 days is a great accomplishment, bittersweet or not. To have the spiritual strength to keep your quit despite all... Well, that is why I think "Greatlady" is appropriate. CONGRATULATIONS! I hope you will shake the ills and celebrate asap!
Jim2
You do not know me. Shell7 told me to read all your
journals and posts. I have emphysema and quit smoking for five years then started back up. I am
on day two of my latest quit. I admire all your have
done and been through. You are a true inspiration.
I wish you recovery and healthy living. Best wishes.
Sally aka nwbluebird
nwbluebird