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LIgirl 
1:19am, August 17, 2009
Had an MRI this week due to pain in my arm and lower back. Now I have to go to a specialist who will analyze the results further and make his recommendation as there are two bulging discs in my neck. Then my PAP came back with abnormally high numbers of cells that I need to see ANOTHER specialist about to determine the risk for "the disease that shall not be named..." that starts with a "C". Oh, and they want to to have an colonoscopy as they think there's an issue with blood!!!!!
Just when I thought I was doing good!!! Passed the mamogram, bone density, have excellent blood pressure and cholesterol, lost 15 pounds... I'm trying not to freak, but I'm worried about the "what ifs?" and the "and thens?" and the "I don't wanna's!" Then on top of it all, MORE MEDICINE!!!!!
I guess the only good news is that my daughter is again leveled off on her meds, her dad kicked the crazy girlfriend out, and his mom is moving in to keep an eye on things when he's working. Hopefully, she'll start making strides with her therapist now.
Pretty damn frustrated 'bout now....wish on the "feeling" scale, they had a "FREAKING THE F... OUT!"
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I strongly urge you to firstly stop worrying, worry is the substance of things we have no control over, something that is only fixable by others if indeed it is fixable at all. Worry is also associated with fear, and all fears are imagined bar the fear of falling that is.
Stop worrying dear friend, it serves you absolutely nought. You are a SPECIAL human being, think and treat yourself that way and you will overcome these seemingly insurmountable obstacles.
I know you are one tough ombre, so proove me right, stand up and be counted, defy what you think is logic, come on we both know you can.
BeatinBP