Ali5tair's Journal

Been away in deep thaught.

Think De Mierliers diagnosis of Not just CFS Alistair but you have Gulf War Syndrome has knocked me for a loop. I cant get a straight answer from any Dr on wether I have a chance at recovering.

Am seeing DeMierlier again in 2 weeks time.

He's worth every cent.

He's a Dr who knows and cares.

I'm sorry I havn't been around here latley.

You've all been on my mind.

I'm in a disconcerting holding pattern.

Migranes over the last 3 weeks have been bad.

I think its all food intollerance threshold level related. If only I could work it out. At least I have found one breakfast cerial museli that I can eat without triggering migrane.

Was able to go away with the family for the first time in 5 years for a week just two weeks ago. Beechworth is beautiful.

Have to keep counting my blessing more than letting the heavy crap way on me. Saw a dick head of a Psychiatrist  in Canberra recently. The rudest most arrogant pain in the arse I have ever had the mis fortune of being required to see.

He didn't give a stuff that I had all the research done for him by world eminand Doctors researchers and Specialists. He said he didn't even want to see the reports I had from them. He told me to put them back in my bag.

The idiot then went on to prescribe antidepressants. The moron didn't even want to listen to the bio chemical science that has been established as to why antidepressants are usless. & years on them and bugger all help so I think I know my body better than some jack arse arogant shrink that hasn't even got the time to be curtious and is as dense as uranium when it comes to heavy metal poisening , mercury, lead tin poisening and how both mercury, and lead both cross the blood brain barrier and bugger up Seratonin, Dopamine and Nor Adrenaline levels. When they are arrogant and fingers in ears "know alls'" Psychiatrists are the biggest walking waste of space of any Profession on the planet. I challange anyone to prove me wrong.

If you want something to change your going to have to do it yourself.

No body else will give enough of a stuff to do it properly, well thats not quite acurate , 99.9% of the rest of the population on planet earth wont give enough of a stuff to do it (whatever it is) right.

Sorry I'm so frank. The so and so in Canberra really pissed me off. Sometimes I feel like I have a score to settle.

I hope you all have been able to find ways to improve your quality of life while I've been walkabout.

Love and empathy with your journey.

If only like pilgrim in pilgrims progress we couldlay down our load, the only thing is that with pain, CFS, PN, ME, MCS, IBS-d, SS you can't just drop this crap. Its in us 24/7.

To all the horrible psychiatrists on the planet, "You Suck", but you can "Suck Less" if you continue to learn new true biochemical science about how neurotoxins and heavy metals interfeer with the esential brain chemical. Antidepressants are mostly a huge waste of time because they are designed by the Pharmicological Industrial Empire which has a vested interest in creating and maintaining captive revinue streams for their shareholders. The patient comes a distant second. The shareholders and owners of these corrupt companies come a long way infront of any social good performed toward the patient. Huge multi National marketing advertising and Media companies shmooze and parooze the Doctors and fill these susceptable and frequantly niavely gullable individuals with all the hype about the "latest greatest revolutionary breakthrough in the antidepressant arsonal" and then these gullible individuals persuade us the vulnerable needy sufferer to take the crap and it only makes us worse.

Every Psychiatrist on the planet will one day have to answer to their maker. If I was a Psychiatrist I'd be craping my pants right now at the very thaught of that. 

Ali5tair

Ali5tair