hi everyone...
November 28, 2008 7:39pm
sorry everyone...
sorry i havent been online to show my support to everyone.
i havent been using the site alot recently, as i forgot i even had …
Samstar
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About Me
Samstar
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About Me
Hi, I'm Sam. Basically I live with my beautiful mum and brother, i'm engaged to a lovely guy called Johnny, he is everything to me and I also have the most amazing best friend, Clare, I couldn't ask for anyone better, she's amazing, my angel.? I love playing guitar, singing and writing music.
Hi, I'm Sam. Basically I live with my beautiful mum and brother, i'm engaged to a lovely guy called Johnny, he is everything to me and I also have the most amazing best friend, Clare, I couldn't ask for anyone better, she's amazing, my angel.? I love playing guitar, singing and writing music.
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acoustic guitar, singing, writing music, amazing lyrics, meaningful music, gigs. Andrea Bocelli ♥ Jason Mraz ♥
acoustic guitar, singing, writing music, amazing lyrics, meaningful music, gigs. Andrea Bocelli ♥
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Judmental buggers!
March 22, 2008 4:45pm
hey guys,
sorry I havent posted anything new as of recently, i havent been feeling too good.
I hope that everyones doing well.
Basically recently, …
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meh...
March 14, 2008 12:02pm
hey!
first time I've wrote anything on here.
Anyway, I'm Sam. I'm 20 years old and I'm engaged.
To be honest, life in …
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Flower
I'm thinking of you! You made it through another day!
Moment of Peace
I wish you peace this holiday season
Hug
if you could do me a favor and go back to the hugs a few pages back and delete that hug that I put on there before I realized everyone else could see it? It's got my email, information lke that, ect. on it. hehe. a little paranoid. it'd put me at ease though.
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i'm sorry to hear that. I really am. It's good to hear from you again. I'm doing well. I hope you find support here.
Hug
sorry about your dad. i know i lost my mom sept 2006 and 8 months later (june 2007) i lost my dad. even though i wasnt really that close to either of them it still hurt.
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Close Self-Injury
The first time I self harmed was after my Gran died, when I was 16, my world crashed. I'm now 20 and I've started self harming again, its now an addiction along with tattoos. I have lost too many people and my best mates nearly lost her life to suicide attempts, I dont wantto go down that road anymore...but I cant stop.
Treatments
- Outpatient Treatment Program Too Soon to Tell
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- i've been to councelling, twice. it didnt help me one bit! I'm waiting to see a psychologist, so we shall see how that goes.
- Red Marker Not Working
- Rubber Bands Not Working
- Squeezing Ice Working / Worked
- Talking Not Working
- no-one understands, and your mood changes so sudden. if you have a date planned to go see your doctor, that could be a good day and you dont feel like talking about how bad your feeling, its all unplanned and doesnt work for me.
- Tattoos Somewhat Helpful
- i believe this works for me for a while, as tattoos are very painful and after I've had a tattoo and saw the blood I feel a bit better. whenever I feel beyond low, i consider tattoos, or even get a tattoo. I currently have 6 and I've had 15 piercings, which I've taken out and I only have 3 left.
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI've had depression for about 4 and a half years, probably more that I was in denial of. The past 6 months have been the biggest struggles of my life. Im currently on 210mg of lofepramine and its still not working 100% for me, needs changed again.
Treatments
- Celexa Not Working
- they didnt work for me, they made me numb.
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- just startin this.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- waste of time...
- Prozac Not Working
- made me suicidal.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- wasnt for me, i felt they didnt understand me enough.
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- it feels im passing my hurt/pressure onto them.
- Trazodone Too Soon to Tell
- Writing Not Working
Open Sexual Abuse
I was sexually abused from as far back as I can remember. I have blocked the majority of it out tho, I have had a couple of flashbacks, but those are the only memories I have of it. However, that doesnt mean it doesnt affect me, I struggle everyday with anxiety, paranoia, extremely low self confidence and I always feel I'm not worthy enough for other people.
Treatments
- Art Not Working
- Group Therapy Not Working
- i dont like discussing anythin of my life infront of anyone really.
- Leave Somewhat Helpful
- It helps for a bit, reality hits again and you're back where you started.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- i play meaningful songs on guitar and write music about personal experiences of about how im feeling.
- Talking Not Working
- words are never going to heal what happened.
- \"The Courage To Heal\" Working / Worked
- This is the only thing that can keep me going and help me cope, self courage is all we abused people have left to keep us sane, or drive us insane. I choose to try and keep myself semi sane.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
it was when i was younger, up until i was about 12.
Treatments
- Forgiveness Somewhat Helpful
- i have always believed you should forgive and forget, but the forgetting part is the hardest.
- Leave Not Working
- worked while i was away, but when i came back reality hit after a while and i was back at square one again.
- Music Not Working
- as i said before, words cant heal what happened nor take away the memories.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- councelling has never worked for me.
Open Eczema
i have had excema all my life, it ruined my childhood because od how bad it was. it upsets me so much when it breaks out again, i cant go out with it because it gets so bad on my face!
Treatments
- Aloe Vera Not Working
- never worked.
- Betamethasone (Topical) Not Working
- it made the itch worse.
- Evening Primrose Oil Not Working
- never worked.
- Fucidin Working / Worked
- workedfor a while, then didnt.
- Melaleuca Tea tree oil Not Working
- never worked.
- Oilatum Somewhat Helpful
- takes away the itch for a while.
Open Alcoholism
Samstar hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
i was diagnosed with OCD about 2 months ago, I've known I've had it for about 10 years, but try telling a doctor something...they dont listen 99% of the time.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Too Soon to Tell
Open Insomnia
I've had insommnia for about 3 years now. My doctor gives me tablets to last a month, then expects my sleeping pattern to get better...it doesnt, he still wont listenwhen i tell him Im still not sleeping.
Treatments
- Counting Sheep Not Working
- pfft.
- Lunesta Not Working
- you basically need to overdose yourself after a couple of days to sleep on them things.
- Meditation Not Working
- Music Not Working
- because I am musical, I just get into the music too much and cant sleep lol.
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- sometimes i read until i fall asleep, but it depends on my mood and if i've done alot that day.
Open Anxiety
I was told I had anxiety from my doc about 6 months ago. I am very paranoid of being attacked, its the past misbehaving. I am petrified of someone commin into my home and sexually attacking me.
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)I am positive I have Borderline personality disorder. My doctor says I dont. I see everything in black &white, i have constant outbursts of anger..i have alot of the signs, but the doc wont listen.
Treatments
- Talking Not Working
- it doesnt change the mind when your minds in 2 places.
Open Anger Management
i get angry at everything, i take it out on other people and even after making other people feel like shit, i still feel as if i havent let enough steam off.
Open Bereavement
i lost my gran 4 years ago, it hit me hard and i cant deal with it. i miss her like crazy.
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- Getting Angry Not Working
- Grief Counseling Not Working
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Prayer Not Working
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Reading Not Working
- Remembering Not Working
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- Support Groups Not Working
- Talking Not Working
- Time Not Working
Open Pleurisy
i had pleurisy in 2007, was extremely painful.
Open Pregnancy
Samstar hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Sex / Pornography Addiction
my fiance is an addict :(
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