Journal

   Not a good day for me. My neck is absolutely driving me crazy. I have an appointment with pain management doctor tommorrow so maybe she can help somehow.I need to have a cervical epidural but I am afraid.It's not pain I fear,once you have cancer pain is just par for the course,it's just with my luck I would end up paralyzed.

  I do have one thing to look forward to.I get my dream car at noon tommorrow...a candy apple red Camaro.I am so excited!!!! My wonderful husband pulled his retirement to buy it for me.What a man!!!

  Still haven't started on my walking regimen.I just can't excersise when my neck hurts as bad as it has the past few days. 

  I slept all day long and didn't wake up until 9 pm. My kids are on spring break this week so I thought I would use the time to get my body used to the Lyrica.It works great,it really is a miracle drug,but I cannot stay awake when I  take it. When I signed on,I saw an article about Patrick Swayze.Bless his heart, I am pulling for him and keeping him in my prayers.

    When I was going through chemo I had this crazy idea that once I finished treatment,my life wold go back to the way it was.Not quite! Now I understand what survivors mean when they talk about " a new normal". I struggle daily to even achieve this and sometimes wonder if I ever will.I am really glad that I found this website.I see by reading others posts that I am alone.Well,I guess I didn't get anywhere with my goal today.Reckon I will start tomorrow.