change is in the air
August 22, 2008 2:46pm
Change is good....change comes on quickly in my past experience. You are going along day to day plodding away then, Bam, something …
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About Me
mesawoman
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About Me
Ex-adventurer. Domestically challenged, Wicked, dry sense of Humor. Essentially complicated personality. I would love to be a simple person who doesn't think sooo much and feel the weight of the world all time. Middle aged and struggling with just about everything. Looking for friends to relate to who don't judge but will tell me straight up what they really think. I struggle with knowing that my father sexually abused my stepsisters when I was too young to do anything or understand. He was the world to me, until I found out, after his death. I had and abusive marriage at 19 and ran away to FL with nothing at 20 to get away from him. Dad died on my 21st b-day and my mom left him when I was 17 and he was sick so I was the caretaker thru high school and didn't go to college but I was a good student so I really should have. All ancient history. Recently, a close friend died another has been struggling to recover from a stroke and my mom had one in 05' that she is now in a nursing home because of. I hate where I come from and the parents I am descended from are such poor "stock" that it really has been weighing on me I can't bear the thought of being like either one of them but as I get older I see it and it makes me sick. Plastic surgery anyone? Currently, I work in food service and have done sales and entertainment in radio way back when. I love animals and movies and all music. I am very intense and I crave good, intelligent conversation, so please don't hesitate to msg. me.
Ex-adventurer. Domestically challenged, Wicked, dry sense of Humor. Essentially complicated personality. I would love to be a simple person who doesn't think sooo much and feel the weight of the world all time. Middle aged and struggling with just about everything. Looking for friends to relate to who don't judge but will tell me straight up what they really think. I struggle with knowing that my father sexually abused my stepsisters when I was too young to do anything or understand. He was the world
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Interests
Anything southwestern. Anything along the lines of new age studies/spirituality. stargazing. Music in any form but RAP. Good movies. Southpark.
Anything southwestern. Anything along the lines of new age studies/spirituality. stargazing. Music in
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Journal Entry for April 1, 2008
April 1, 2008 12:54pm
Good weekend. Had a big blowout with my husband that actually helped! We resolved lots of issues that we have been avoiding . …
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feeling better today
March 27, 2008 6:05pm
Life is so odd. One day you are ripping your hair out and the next your singing. I woke up today feeling good for no reason. I have …
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Hugbook
Ray of Sunshine
well if at work you ever think you should be doing something else," Here, my support",
Celebration
sorry...i had a glitch with DS, for some reason it went to everybody. i had to talk to the tech people...i put an explanation on my profile page. sorry bout that.
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Flower
flowers for you, my dear friend.
Hug
just because I love you
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sending love your way
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionconsistently sad. Married. Lonely. Having trouble coping. Need Hope and Help.
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- total loss of libido trouble sleeping. didn't continue use.
Close Healthy Eating
I work in a BBQ and it is impossible to eat healthy. I am on a tight tight budget and i need some suggestions on what to do I need to lose 75lbs that i have gained over the last 7yrs.
Treatments
- Physical Exercise Not Working
- back pain has kept me from any vigorous exercise mostly sciaticia and plantar faciatis
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
Smoked from 14 to 32 then clean for 7.5 yrs till last Feb. now back to a pack a day! I am so ashamed and dissapointed in myself--no self control and very frustrated I thought it was over.
Treatments
- Hard Candy Working / Worked
- helped the first time
- Nicotine Gum Working / Worked
- rwally helped the first time I quit
