luvscoco99's Journal

Look I am gonna be honest here...I am pissed off..and really, really pissed off!!

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I  am sooo NOT kidding here...

I found out that my hubby's eldest daughter who WAS doing okay with her three kids for a while..is NOW doing drugs, with her boyfriend..and more than she was before..and NOW the state where she is living took her children!

We are maybe gonna have to "adopt" the kids! FUCK!!!

I am really  distraught..because THIS  should NOT be happening at all!

This is SOOO UNFAIR!!!

God must hate us or something..otherwise I just do not have HIM figured out yet!!!

Man!! This has literally made me so GODDAMN angry..I ended up with two bloody noses today!!

I am leaving tomarrow to deal with a hearing that this "woman"(my hubby's eldest kid) is gonna have to go thru!!

I don't know if she REALLY gives a hoot or not..ya know? She is doing drugs..and from what I have gone thru with other addicts..they could honestly NOT give a damn!!!

I am sorry..but, I am just really NOT havin' it..NOPE!! I do NOT care WHO you are..if you lie to me, steal from me..YOU are SOOO GONEEE!!! I have NO NOTHING for you, at all, it's been totally tapped out by you!!!

I don't plan to be a nice person to those who have been affected by drugs..they can just eat shit...and leave me the hell alone!!!

I am sorry..but,the way that I view this..is that now hubby and I are gonna have to deal with this...I am hoping that hubby's daughter's kids can stay with their other grandpa...But, I have no idea...

Man! She sure as hell messed up her own damn life!!

Please excuse my anger.and rage..but, I am worried ,scared(that we might have to adopt these kids) and that our life is gonna fall apart because of it!!) and I wanted the life that I got with my "new" hubby and schweetie!

I am just really, really scared and worried..and I needed another place to vent!!

If I have possibly offended you..I was not trying to..I am not a "happy camper!" and right now I cannot just "Get Over It!"....I do NOT know what is gonna happen yet..we are gonna leave tomarrow to deal with this shit!!

I just hope that it gets settled..that's all I can say..and that WE  do NOT have to take the kids!!

Thats' all...Otherwise you would probably read more with me yelling,  screaming and throwing stuff!!

I hate that this woman has lied to her father..is hooked on some drugs(we just found out MORE info tonight  on the phone, by her step-dad,) and I really think that she has been lying up the wazoo left and right to GET HER WAY or ELSE!!!

Well, anyhow..I am just UNhappy at this writing..so, if I come out with a LOT more swearing..you will know how angry I am right now!!

I am sooo UNhappy..and I want her to get her shit totally and finally  together..but, I guess that that ain't gonna happen...her kids will be adopted by somebody in the family or out..and she will be refused to be able to see them..more than likely!!

What a huge waste of family and a whole human being...

I gotta say that having lived with alcoholics and more..I am NOT havin' it..and I also used to tell those damn alcoholics where they could stuff themselves too!!

(I  really think that people who do the drugs..should SUFFER,

I also think that people who do crimes to others..should DEEPLY suffer as well...and they should get to actually "Feel" what they have done to harm the ones that they harmed or killed!!

Why should the victims have to be victims? and why should the families and friends,  co-workers ,neighbors and more have to suffer because of these acts of hatred and violence?)

I  do NOT have ANY remorse in what I have just stated...I loathe those who hurt, and harm or depress or oppress others!! They need to just shut the hell up and stop the whining!!

(OH yeah, like I feel sorry for you.NOOOOOOoooo I don't THINK so!!!!)

Go with me now...angry ranting...if you need to ,chime in with me...it might truly help!!

talk to ya later...luvscoco99