Journal Entry for July 2, 2008
So............I've been doing really amazingly lately.....I'm accepting my body and learning to love it the way it is. I am really trying to …
i'm 19. been bulimic since march of 2007...none of my immediate family knows, and last november when i started at San Diego State i hit a really low point and finally checked myself into some campus counseling. I've stopped that since, and am pretty much on my own with this thing. But i've recently decided to stop letting ED define me. I am constantly moving to become a better person all around!!
i'm 19. been bulimic since march of 2007...none of my immediate family knows, and last november when i started at San Diego State i hit a really low point and finally checked myself into some campus counseling. I've stopped that since, and am pretty much on my own with this thing. But i've recently decided to stop letting ED define me. I am constantly moving to become a better person all around!!
SDSU college life, my family, my friends, making the best out of every moment and living my life to the fullest! i like being with real people who just want to enjoy life.
SDSU college life, my family, my friends, making the best out of every moment and living my life to the
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LittleSpoon joined the College Stress support group 5:12am
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my recovery has been VERY hit and miss these days....i did well for about two months, then sorta relapsed…
So............I've been doing really amazingly lately.....I'm accepting my body and learning to love it the way it is. I am really trying to …
i haven't written in a real long time. i thought i was getting better for a long time, but since i have gotten my new boyfriend it has all gotten …
I TOLD MY FRIEND :D
he was amazing. i love him so much. i am going to be okay. in time everything will be okay, for all of you, …
So, i haven't thrown up since tuesday. that's....holy shit, only four days. seems like it's been a couple weeks at least.
i'm …
wow, so yeah, it's occurred to me once again that i am a pathetic fat ass
Peanut butter is healthy...in moderation. High fat content so use lightly on whole grain toast for a healthy breakfast:)
Hi LittleSpoon,
Blech! The morning after feeling is the worst feeling in the world. :( I am in treatment right now, and I'm also trying to learn what to do the next day to get back on track as well. This is one of those things where the answer is easy (according to my docs) but doing it is really, really hard. Recovery is never perfect and slips do happen, but yesterday is over and done with, so today's goal should be to keep it from happening again.
How? Well, what I tend to do (which feels like the right answer but is wrong!) is restrict the next day to 'make up for it'. Sometimes this works, but usually it leads to another binge. What I'm supposed to do is get right back on my meal plan the following morning, which I must admit is the hardest thing in the world to do. Oh, I'm also going to work with my dietitian this week on how to make up for a binge the healthy way, meaning to alter my eating slightly for the week so that it all balances out at the end of the week.
This implies that you have a meal plan, which you may not. Do you restrict, too, to "make up for"? Working with a dietitian is really helpful, because they give you an eating plan that's supposed to give you enough nutritious food so that biologically you don't crave food. Restricting tends to be the biggest cause of binges.
Oh btw, I messaged you privately b/c advice sometimes triggers people and causes this discussion to go the wrong way. :) I hope you're okay with what I said.
Oh, it also helps to have a list of things you can do "the morning after" to distract yourself from negative feelings and make yourself feel better. Than you can look at it and just pick one, rather than having to come up with something when you're probably feeling crappy.
Sorry to talk on and on - I've just been working on this a lot and I know it's an important part of recovery. Feel free to msg me back if you have questions.
Take care and enjoy your Saturday! :)
Ali
I also try to do something nice for myself in the morning that makes me feel healthy, like go for a walk outside.
thank you so so much..I really needed that... I just feel like nobody understands anything im going through.. and to be honest. they shouldnt because they dont no.. and its my fault... but part of me resents them for not looking close enough.. But thanks and I will listen to the songs :)
Thank you for your advice! I hope you are doing well. Stay strong!
I'm SICK....and i'm SICK OF IT
trying to eat healthy and make good choices!
i'm in college....and i'm stressed!!!!