WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!I DID IT!!!I WENT …
WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!I DID IT!!!I WENT ONE WHOLE WEEK WITH OUT CUTTING!!!IM SO EXCITED!!!!I DIDNT THINK I COULD DO IT …
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dem000 
6:54pm Yesterday
It all started last night. I was talking to someone who was raped to years ago. I starting sweating, having more tics. But mostly I kept getting scary images of practically anything scary, and having daymares of my dad raping me. My dad abuses me, but never raped me. Then I just decided to go to bed. I fell asleep, and woke up about 5 times in the middle of the night talking to my mom while I was still dreaming. My mom said I was also groaning and moaning a lot. I was dreaming about my dad, and hyenas that were trying to eat us, but mostly about my dad. Then I woke up, and was doing great, by responding to people in the tourettes group, and talking to 2 people. Then my mom started argueing AGAIN about how I don't get out enough and stuff. So I was looking in the newspaper, and I thought of seeing a movie. I usually hate movies, but I wanted to see Where The Wild Things Are. We ended up going, and the movie brought up my thoughts of lonliness, which then brought up my feelings of sadness, anger, and everything else. When we were out of the theater I finally told my mom that my bad dream was about dad, and I then I told her "the anger issue." My psychologist and I have been talking about subconsiously how angry I am at my mom. My psycologist and I are trying to understand it better before we tell my mom, but a little part slipped, by telling my mom that I was angry at her. When we got home I sat on her bed with her, and had this annoying, and angering conversation about stuff. These last past 2 days have been horrible. I just don't know what to do. Please , if you have advice, help, or anything that could help me, I would apprieciate it very much. Please comment, even if it's just a hug.
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im sorry this was all my fault i was the one you wer talking to im srry
softballbabek131
((((hug))))))!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am here for you if you need me!!!!!
jeg0523
Don't be sorry, I should have not talked to anyone, I should have gone to bed.
dem000
hugs hugs and holding ..sooner or later things gotta come out in the open... and very often not easy to see or express or hear, for you , or the other person...
hugs hugs sooner or later, and probably not you or friends fault
just likely busted out on that night ... and had u gone to bed, then would have happened at another time... hugs to both of you, devin, and softballbabe...
spiritlost1