My name is Devin, and I am good at standing up for people, plus I do it a lot, but only when I think it is right. I love going on the computer, and being on it in general. I have had a numerous amount of pets in the past, but at the moment I have 3 dogs.
My name is Devin, and I am good at standing up for people, plus I do it a lot, but only when I think it is right. I love going on the computer, and being on it in general. I have had a numerous amount of pets in the past, but at the moment I have 3 dogs.
I would appreciate if everyone and looked at my profile, maybe even chat! Thanks!
I would appreciate if everyone and looked at my profile, maybe even chat! Thanks!
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November 11, 2009 7:21pm
I wrote this whole poem just out of my heart, and what I have been feeling. I need people to comment on this with advic, hugs, what they thought …
October 24, 2009 6:57pm
It all started last night. I was talking to someone who was raped to years ago. I starting sweating, having more tics. But mostly I kept getting …
Thanks babe music playing for a while tonight i ll see if i get up beat, thanks for the hug babe i needed it tonight u take care Biggggggggggg Hugsssssssss love a friend.xxx. Thankyou have a good night babe.
hey just wanted you to know im still here for you if you want to talk
good afternoon for me. ^_^ how are you doing?
hi babe sorry i have not been here much for you i sometimes feel the same way as you do i hope that you are ok take care love a friend.xxx.i did a poem a few days ago too take a look if you would like to, message anytime and i will answer as soon as i can i do check messages every day bigggggggggggggggg hugssssssssss lov a friend.xxx.
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I have Tourettes Syndrome, and lots of tics with it. My tourettes is really hard to explain, and many people don't understand it, so they just don't believe me. I was diagnosed with it when I was 13, but my I think I have had it my whole life. I have gone to the hospital from it, because the doctor thought I was going to get a concussion from the head banging. If you want me to explain it to you I will try. And I LOVE questions!!!
I get really depressed sometimes. All I want to do is die, and/or hurt myself. I'm working on trying not to cut anymore. I don't want to go to the hospital.
I have a ton of anxiety. I feel sick sometimes because of it. It makes me feel horrible, and do, feel, and think crazy things.
I was diagnosed when I was 13. OCD makes me do wierd things. For example, if I have a tic, it will make me do it 2 more times, so I will have done it 3 times. It makes me do things in odd numbers usually. Like if I'm looking at something, and I'm on page 14, it would make me go to page 15. It especially likes the numbers 1, 3, and 5.
I have a ton of anxiety. I feel sick sometimes because of it. It makes me feel horrible, and do, feel, and think crazy things.
I hyperventilate sometimes. And I always have a hard getting a deep breath.
I have had 4 people in my family with cancer. They all died. I also have had 2 friends with cancer. One died, the other one is still alive. I try my best to get to Relay For Life every year!
I lost both of my grandpa's, in bad deaths. And one grandma in another sad suffering death. I also just cry a lot. It helps me let out my feelings, even if I don't know what they are.
School is extremely stressful to me, with my "problems", or whatever you want to call them. Everyday seems stressful and hard for whatever reason it is. I used to cry a lot from it. I still do sometimes.
The medicines that I am on make me have a enormous appetite, and I nearly never get full unless I eat A LOT of food. It is very frustrating. I can wear the shirts I was to wear sometimes. I am now every other day doing 20 minutes running in front of the tv, the other days I do 20 of these "sit up kind of things." It is hard for me to get on a bike or any other kind of exercise thing because I always have tics to jump off or fall off. It's really hard to not eat when your hungry!
I do a kind of SI that's different from most people. It doesn't sound bad at all, but it does hurt, and I am addicted. I do one of either three things, (so far). I either get a mechanical pencil, get the led partly out, than scratch myself with it until my skin comes up, gets warm, or gets puffed up and red. I also put a rubber band on myself and pull it then let go, so it smacks my arm. Or I rap a rubber band or string around my finger, toe, etc. until I that area gets purple.
I'm still scared of the dark, but it is getting a little bit better. I always try to have lights on. I even have lights on when I go to sleep. And I know it sounds funny, but I kind of scared of balloons. I'm not scared of "the balloons" in particular, but I'm scared when they pop. (More scared then just a screech).
I don't usually like to talk about it. But if you really want to know, you can ask....
I'm going through a lot, I have lost many pets, I'm having a lot of trouble with my tourettes, I'm trying to help my mom, while she tries to help me, I'm not going to list everything, because I would always be adding more.
I struggle with a lot of stress. Everyday brings different problems, and I always have the problems that don't go away.
I used to have 4 dogs, in one year I was down to one. I have had many pets. And when including family pets I have had 3 ducks, 2 hermit crabs, 7 birds, 1 hamster, 2 guinea pigs, guinea pig babies (they were dead when I found them), 1 baby turtle that my mom found in the yard (he didn’t last too long), many minnows (I found them in a pond, they never lasted more than 2 days, I stopped keeping them), and the 3 dogs. The dogs where definitely the hardest to loose. I still cry about them.
*Sigh.* It's a long long story. But to make it simple, my mom stayed with my dad for a long time. He emotionally hurt her a lot. When my dad started being abusive to my 2 brothers and I, she knew it was enough. They left each other, but never divorced or even separated. My mom is STILL trying to get a divorce, but my dad is trying anything to stop it, or make it worse for some reason. He has been and still can be really horrible.
I seem to always feel misunderstood, which makes me feel lonely sometimes. I never seem to be able to feel completely great.
I have been in a car crash, and I get really nervous in cars sometimes. I also am constantly spraining my ankles and other joints. I have been on crutches once also.
I have depression pretty bad sometimes, and I enjoy helping/supporting others.
