Journal Entry for August 6, 2007
August 6, 2007 7:51pm
Things are going well for the most part. I registered for classes today. I'm only taking 2 this semester since I'm working a LOT.The …
cate211
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About Me
cate211
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About Me
I'm 22 and justed moved home to Moberly, MO. I currently work as a CMA at an assisted living home with 25+ residents. I'm working on my bachelors degree in biology AND my bachelors of science of nursing. I just broke up with my fiance, who suffers severely from clinical depression. Personally, I think I should write a book about all the things wrong with me though. From being born with 3 holes in the heart...to being a cutter...and now having weight problems...it seems I have it all at times :( My family is also having a ton of problems from my sister's HPV and cancer scare to my parents' newly found heart problems. This is my venting place and my sharing place when I'm happy. I love getting to know others. I've been busy and I'm sorry for slacking on all you readers out there but I'm here now :)
I'm 22 and justed moved home to Moberly, MO. I currently work as a CMA at an assisted living home with 25+ residents. I'm working on my bachelors degree in biology AND my bachelors of science of nursing. I just broke up with my fiance, who suffers severely from clinical depression. Personally, I think I should write a book about all the things wrong with me though. From being born with 3 holes in the heart...to being a cutter...and now having weight problems...it seems I have it all at times :( My
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wildlife, camping, fishing, scrapbooking, online journaling, world of warcraft, reading
wildlife, camping, fishing, scrapbooking, online journaling, world of warcraft, reading
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Journal Entry for July 25, 2007
July 25, 2007 7:03pm
ALAS, I HAVE RETURNED.
Here's where I've been:
James and I broke up officially foreverI moved back to the Mobtown areaI got my CMAI work as a …
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Journal Entry for April 18, 2007
April 18, 2007 8:04pm
Elaboration: The real reason we broke up was because I had left the school we were both attending, without explanation and he started thinking it …
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Journal Entry for April 18, 2007
April 18, 2007 5:44pm
ADVICE NEEDED Ok this is going to sound kinda odd but hear me out. My ex bf was talking to me (miraculous in itself). I finally asked him if he's …
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Journal Entry for April 13, 2007
April 13, 2007 3:14pm
I love my new job, I really do...the pay is great, it's an awesome experience and I love what I do. Working in an ISL is really a touching …
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Close Congenital Heart Disease
Type: Atrial or Ventricular Septal Defect (ASD / VSD)I'm 22 and was born with a congenital heart disease. I was born with 2 ventricular septal defects and 1 atrial septal defect (3 holes). I had a PA banding put on at 6 weeks of age and then open heart surgery at a year old. I was never allowed to do p.e. in school or play like the other kids could. I'm just now allowed to start working up to strenuous activity for the first time ever.
Close High Blood Pressure
I was diagnosed with high blood pressure when I was 18 and we're still having trouble maintaining it.
Treatments
- Lisinopril Somewhat Helpful
- They just upped me to 10mg
- HCT Somewhat Helpful
- 50mg and they still had to add lisinopril in the mix
Open Eczema
About 4 weeks ago is when my first case of eczema showed up and it was a very severe case.
Treatments
- Hydrocortisone Not Working
- Betamethasone (Topical) Working / Worked
- This only helped a little
- Clobetasol Working / Worked
- The miracle cream!
Open Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)
I was told 4 years ago that I had early signs of PCOS...since then I've had lots of problems with cysts and infections but I JUST NOW was confirmed that I definitely DO have it. My levels are all fine except my testerone is through the roof. I also havent had a period since like February and it's due to this...I worry about infertility.
Treatments
- Oral Contraceptives Somewhat Helpful
- Desogen
Open Insomnia
The past few months I just could not sleep. It got to the point that I was seeing things. Finally my doctor put me on meds for it but I still have issues.
Treatments
- Clonazepam Somewhat Helpful
- It only works if I take 2 of them 2 hours before bedtime but now I have nightmares.
Open Obesity
I'm very fat. I'm getting scared because each day I'm getting closer and closer to 300. That REALLY scares me. I was never allowed to exercise/have p.e. as a child due to heart problems and it just caught up with me and now I'm just lazy and have no idea where to start. My doctor says it's not my diet that's the problem but my lack of exercise but I don't know how to get started and gyms are far too expensive.
Open Panic Attacks
I've been in the mental hospital on 2 occasions because of panic attacks.
Treatments
- Paxil Working / Worked
Open Self-Injury
I started cutting 4 years ago. Now, I haven't done it for almost a year but I'm scared I'm going to relapse and do it again. I get so tempted and it worries me.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I always suffered from emotional abuse from my parents. My mother tried to convince me that it was all my father but as I grew older I discovered it was her more than anyone.
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
I've been fat since about 3rd grade and I have no idea where to start!
Treatments
- Weight Watchers Too Soon to Tell
- Weight Watchers Working / Worked
- I joined WW today and I'm nervous/anxious to see if it works!
Open Stress Management
I've been hospitalized twice due to stress mostly. They've upped my medicines and situations are just rough. I need stress management!
Treatments
- Anger Management Considering
- Paxil Somewhat Helpful
- Clonazepam Somewhat Helpful
Open Eating Disorders
I've done research and I'm beginning to think I really do have a binge eating disorder. I can remember being UNDER weight and always too skinny...until I was traumatized over my grandmother's death when I was 7. I took it far too hard and my father had made me touch her in the casket, which freaked me out for years. I instantly went from being under 50 pounds to over 100 in less than one school year. I'd eat as a hobby, as a comfort, and as a habit. I never stopped it though. I'm beginning to think this is my problem. The ugly part is now that I see it...I feel guilty and feel extremely bad. A part of me wants to cut myself like I once did. A part of me wants to admit outloud that I feel suicidal. Another part of me wants to admit myself in a treatment center for binge eating.
Open Food Addiction
I've done research and I'm beginning to think I really do have a binge eating disorder. I can remember being UNDER weight and always too skinny...until I was traumatized over my grandmother's death when I was 7. I took it far too hard and my father had made me touch her in the casket, which freaked me out for years. I instantly went from being under 50 pounds to over 100 in less than one school year. I'd eat as a hobby, as a comfort, and as a habit. I never stopped it though. I'm beginning to think this is my problem. The ugly part is now that I see it...I feel guilty and feel extremely bad. A part of me wants to cut myself like I once did. A part of me wants to admit outloud that I feel suicidal. Another part of me wants to admit myself in a treatment center for binge eating.
