Journal Entry for July 31, 2009
July 31, 2009 7:37am
Progress
45 %
Goal End Date is Aug 29, 09 90 days ago.
Current Weight (KGs)
65
RachNZ
7:45am, July 31, 2009
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About Me
RachNZ
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About Me
I am a 21 year old Christian working in a law firm doing administration. I am about to get married to my wonderful fiance named Sam who is truly amazing and I love him a lot. I go to an awesome church where I have lots of great friends. I have been through two periods of Clinical Depression in my short life, and have struggled with self-harm and an eating disorder in the past.
I am a 21 year old Christian working in a law firm doing administration. I am about to get married to my wonderful fiance named Sam who is truly amazing and I love him a lot. I go to an awesome church where I have lots of great friends. I have been through two periods of Clinical Depression in my short life, and have struggled with self-harm and an eating disorder in the past.
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Interests
Music and singing, friends, fair trade promotion and justice for the oppressed and third world, Christianity / my faith, psychology, running, the beach / nature, good films and books.
Music and singing, friends, fair trade promotion and justice for the oppressed and third world, Christianity
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Journal
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Hate my body
June 17, 2008 3:24am
I am struggling against my body majorly at the moment. I hate it. I disgust myself. I want to go back to the days when I could eat …
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I'm back
June 17, 2008 3:09am
Hi again, I know I haven't been on here in ages. I suppose I hoped I was normal, better. But I can't say that yet. I'm …
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Antidepressants
April 12, 2008 7:30am
I'm seriously consdiering coming off this junk. These antidepressants are NOT WORKING!!!! All they did was take away my sadness, but …
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Temptation
April 4, 2008 4:24am
The drugs make me want to do stupid things. My conscience has almost disasppeared. It's like they get rid of excess guilt that comes …
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Hello fellow KIWI, if you would like to meet other like minded Kiwis from your own little neck in the woods, then please come visit KIWIS FROM AOTEAROA..we are one big extended family! Hope to see you there soon. HUGS Jo.
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sorry rach. take care
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I haven't heard from you in a while so I wanted to stop by and give you a random hug. I hope you have a good day. *hugs*
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionThis is my second episode of clinical depression. The first time I was 14/15 years old. I am now 20 and it's come back. I am a lot stronger this time so knew where to start my recovery so I'm on the way, but it takes time and isn't easy.
Treatments
- Celexa Working / Worked
- This is my second time to go on this anti-depressant. It has worked before, I'm hoping it will work again.
- Prozac Not Working
- This was the first thing I ever tried. It made me 100 times worse.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I did this last time I was depressed. Have yet to consider it this time around. I think it helped last time, but this episode is more physical than the last which was more psychological.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Helps me heaps.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- Friends and family praying for me definitely helped me through. I believe in God.
Close Insomnia
Comes along with the depression I have. I spend all day wanting to sleep, I go to bed and lie awake tossing, turning and driving myself crazy.
Treatments
- Lavender Somewhat Helpful
- Sometimes works. I'm gonna try it again. I had some stuff called "sleep spray" once.
- Lunesta Working / Worked
- It is slowly wearing off. I'm not supposed to be on it long term. I can barely sleep with it, I'm terrified to go without.
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- Focusing on relaxing body parts one at a time. I'm past that now though.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Sometimes works.
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- My mum read to me from my textbook the other night. That put me to sleep quick.
Open Anxiety
I freak out a lot, part of my depression I suppose. Sometimes if something makes me feel bad I get heart palpitations weird breathing etc. If something going on in my life is freaking me I will often hide away in bed too scared to get up.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
Open Eating Disorders
Type: AnorexiaWas anorexic aged 12-13 and has been a battle for me ever since. I am finally feel like I am comfortable in my skin now.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
