lupiefuen's Journal

Well, I am just  very frustrated right now.  It seems that everyday something new happens to me.   I am now experiencing pain behind my eyes.  It feels like I haven't slept in three days.  I have been off from work for the past two days and I have slept very well.  It doesn't seem to help.  I also find myself now trying to make excuses for my symptoms.  I just really can't wait to see the neurologist on September 11.  It is also getting harder for me to read clearly.  I just turned 34 in July, and I feel like I am 60.  It is just so confusing, because I seem to deal with things so well.  I have had severe headaches since 1995, and I never complain about it.  I just kind of keep everything to myself, but these symptoms that I have been having lately are really bothering me and I want to complain dammit!!!  I just feel so frustrated and I don't want to bother anyone.  My husband seems to be in denial of the whole thing, so it's hard to talk to him.  I just wish that I could scream so that the whole world would hear me...  AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!

Well, I don't think anyone heard that but it felt good.  Thanks to everyone here for listening.  Iam just so glad to be able to vent like this!!!

Love and Hugs to everyone and God Bless!!!

Laura