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• Journal Please Forgive Me!

  November 10, 2008 10:09am

  It's been about a month since I last made a journal entry.  I have been spending a lot of time

  looking for work and everything else has …

• Addiction and My Power

  October 9, 2008 11:57pm

   

       I've realized recently that in the past I've looked for things outside myself to make

  me …

• Update #2

  September 23, 2008 12:17am

  ;                      JOB

  I'm still unemployed.  Man when they say, "it's hard to find a job with todays economy" they weren't kidding!! :) I've been spending more time looking.  Today a man I called regarding a floor laying position just came right out and said that he normally has 6 full time workers and lately he has only 2 part time workers.  I've been getting a lot of this in my many phone calls. So, I've decided I'll continue to apply for construction jobs on the off chance that I strike gold, win the lottery, and find someone hiring.  But, I'm also applying for customer service jobs, and other types of work.  Until I figure out what I really want to do.  

   

  Today, I also accidently applied for my old job.  The company that took over some of

  Western Unions work in the USA, is looking for additional workers at $9 an hour.  The recruiter advised me she didn't think that job would be a good fit for me.  I agreed with her.  But she

  told me if any other jobs come up she would give me a call.

   

  My career counselor told me about organizations that I can apply at.  One of them is

  youth in need.  The other one has clinics all throughout St. Louis, MO that deal with

  addiction, etc.  I would love to be able to get a job there.  I may need to start out doing volunteer work there. I've been saying all along that I don't want another customer service job doing the same thing I was doing. I want to help other people at a deep level. If this doesn't work out.  I am committed to getting some type of degree where I can do therapy, counseling.  Maybe even life coaching or coaching.  This has been one of my dreams for a long time.   

                         

                                                         Music

  Yesterday I went over to a friends house who has a giant drum set (2 bass drums, 5

  tom toms, 5 cymbals), and had a blast playing!  I continue to keep coming up with ideas around

  what I want to do with my music goals.

  1. Practice on songs where I can sing and play drums at the same time.

  2. Continue practicing on the drum set every day.  So that I'm a solid player

      and a better musician.

  3. Learn a list of songs. So I have a set list  of music I know by heart.  

  4. Go to open mic nights to meet other musicans so I can jam.

   

                                           Energy/Chronic Fatigue

  I continue to stay on the candida diet. I have had a little more energy lately and this

  feels good.  I'm scared to mention this because my deeply fear based belief is:

  Don't get too comfortable with anything good that happens in life because it won't last. 

  I'm gonna really try to stay positive. Because whatever happens I will just deal with it.  I'll be ok. This is my mantra.        

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• An Update

  September 6, 2008 3:19pm

  ;             Job SearchI still haven't found a job.  But, I'm using it as an opportunity to continue to learn

  what works and doesn't work in a job search.  I've learned the power of just

  getting my foot in the door.  I've stopped asking if they are hiring now.  I just

  ask if I can send a resume, or find out what the applying process is.  That way in 10

  days if someone quits they have my info.  The Floorlayers union rep that I spoke to

  last Thursday suggested that I go to the location in person. I can introduce myself

  and ask if I can talk to the hiring manager directly.  To me it makes so much sense to do

  this, a piece of paper (resume) is not the same thing as meeting a person. It's a lot

  easier to be forgotten, if I just send out resumes only.

                        

                                         Music

  I've been listening to a lot of music lately.  I continue to work on drum patterns to build

  my musical chops.  My passion for music has been relit.  

   

                                         Energy

  I'm continuing to try to make healthier food choices and stay on my diet. To consider

  what my energy deficiency means to me, it is  a process to get better each day (accepting where I am now). To learn more that I can do to have better, deeper sleep.       

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• The Serenity Prayer & 10 Things I Like About Myself

  August 30, 2008 12:57pm

  ;            The Serenity Prayer 

  ***God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.***

   

  I'm finding the serenity prayer to be extemely helpful in my life right now.  I obsess about the things I don't want (health problems, lack of energy, depression), and don't like about myself or others.  As a result I seem to get more of them.  The law of attraction in action, I do believe.  

   

  So, I'm focusing on what I do want:

   

  1. A new job I enjoy being engaged in

  2. High Energy and what that would look like

  3. Music and being a musician, as a priority in my life 

  4. More and deeper connections with other people

   

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                                  10 Things I like about myself 

  I posted this response on sad (social anxiety disorder) group to someone elses post and thought that this is a great exercise:

   

  1. I love my compassion for people and animals2. I love my desire to really help people at a deep level.3. I love my desire to be an ongoing learner of things that cause me to grow as a person.4. I love my sense of humor5. I love the part of me that enjoys expression through art.6. I love that since I've been a child I have continued to be passionate about playing the drums. 7. I love that even though I don't consider myself to be a good singer. I do it anyway! (I spent all the money my momgave me for singing lessons on drum lessons instead) ha ha :)8. I love that I have made my physical health my biggest priority.9. I love that I may have put my biggest dreams on hold. I have never given up on them.10. I love that I am continuing to face all my fears one by one. Baby steps every day.

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