mariaxanne's Journal

i'm sorry i haven't been on in awhile. i've been getting worse, and honestly, i'm more than a little ashamed because of it.

this past month i lost twenty pounds. i'm no longer considered overweight by bmi standards. 136.0 lbs. i'm still not happy, of course. but this is my life,as it has been for nearly five years. 

i'm shaky and tired. still throwing up blood. chest and abdominal pain is almost constant. breathing has become increasingly difficult.

i'm exhausted. this isn't worth it anymore.

i'll try to get on more often.