Numb
November 8, 2009 10:04am
Im feeling like Im not here. I hate this most. Still smokefree...would kill for a smoke right now though.
mybananaisunripe78
12:08am, October 29, 2009
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About Me
mybananaisunripe78
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About Me
First Year at University taking Psychology (how ironic!!) I had pretty much got over my self harm but its back in full force now. I'm very hard on myself and its gotten bad lately because I was doing so well at uni but then i got a boyfriend and started skipping class and now I'm failing again i just want to curl up and die. Doesn't help that my boyfriend happens to SI and so when i upset him he hurts himself and then i'll do it...vicious circle really. But i love him too much. I'm here to sort out my own problems as well as take on board anyone elses. I've got some good advice :) Much love to you all. Talk to me if you want im friendly :D
First Year at University taking Psychology (how ironic!!) I had pretty much got over my self harm but its back in full force now. I'm very hard on myself and its gotten bad lately because I was doing so well at uni but then i got a boyfriend and started skipping class and now I'm failing again i just want to curl up and die. Doesn't help that my boyfriend happens to SI and so when i upset him he hurts himself and then i'll do it...vicious circle really. But i love him too much. I'm here to sort out
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Interests
Dyeing my hair. Iam blue, green, brunette, blonde, magenta(sometimes) extravaganza!!! Reading. I love a good book. I also enjoy a good write, Poetry and short stories. Drawing is good :) And i love going to the metal gigs we have in town and moshing along with all the metal dudes in the pit. Its brutal hehe
Dyeing my hair. Iam blue, green, brunette, blonde, magenta(sometimes) extravaganza!!! Reading. I love
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Recent Activity
November 9
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mybananaisunripe78 and gayboy1337 are now friends 4:50pm
November 8
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mybananaisunripe78 wrote a journal entry: Numb 10:04am
Im feeling like Im not here. I hate this most. Still smokefree...would kill for a smoke right now though.…
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mybananaisunripe78 changed their mood to Horrible 9:54am
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mybananaisunripe78 wrote a discussion post in the Self-Injury support group: Need to cut badly *trigger* 9:52am
Ugghh hate when its like this. Every inch of me fights whats inside while every inch of me longs for…
November 6
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mybananaisunripe78 wrote a journal entry updating their Quit Smoking goal 6:25pm
Looks like a nice day. I think it will be a happy one. 5 days smokefree :D Got my last exam this coming…
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Sunny Day
November 6, 2009 6:25pm
Looks like a nice day. I think it will be a happy one. 5 days smokefree :D Got my last exam this coming Monday and then im fdone for the year. …
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Good Day
October 29, 2009 8:17pm
First good sleep I've had in a while last night so I feel pretty good today. Off to town to see the boyfriend :) And going to the movies with my …
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Here to Help =D
February 10, 2009 7:46am
Hey guys. Just letting you know im back after slaying the majority of my demons. Im here to help anyone who needs it or just be a friend whatever you …
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Journal 1
March 8, 2008 7:48am
Well my first time on DS was intresting....i managed to accidenty join a sexual abuse group and then got confused why all the forums were about …
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thank you very much (:
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Heya thanks for the comment on my post, nice to see someone else from nz :) all the best to you xoxoxo
I’m With You
I know how you feel. ill be willing to help out if needed any
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Thanks for the comment hunni and i admire you for being able to wear t-shirts and ignoring stupid people. big hugs
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Insomnia
My sleeping is getting better. I get around 5 or 6 hours now :) Going to sleep at 2am or 3am and waking at 9 most days
Close Self-Injury
It all started in my second year of high school. Since then i've gone through periods of having major problems with it to having it mostly under control.
Treatments
- Red Marker Working / Worked
- Not red marker but I write words on myself instead of cutting them in.
- Rubber Bands Not Working
- Not the same kind of pain
Open Sexual Abuse
My grandad made me touch him when I was 12. I find him repulsive now.
