IT'S TOO LATE
May 25, 2008 5:06pm
I can't stop crying today. I've finally come to the realization that it's too late for this marriage to wo
rk out. …
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NancyAC 
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About Me
NancyAC
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About Me
I AM A VERY ATTRACTIVE, PETITE BLONDE WITH MAJOR BACK PAIN ISSUES THAT HAS GONE ON FOR A LONG TIME. I GUESS MY HUSBAND COULDN'T HANDLE IT ANYMORE. I HAVE A 17 YR OLD SON WHO WILL BE ATTENDING USF IN THE FALL. I AM LOOKING FORWARD? TO CORRECTIVE BACK SURGERY IN THE NEXT FEW MONTHS AND HOPE TO BECOME A VIBRANT, PAIN FREE, SPIRITUALLY AWAKENED, HAPPY PERSON. I AM LOOKING FOR WAYS TO MEET NEW FRIENDS. I GET ALOT OUT OF SUPPORT FROM PEOPLE WITH SIMILAR CHALLENGES.
I AM A VERY ATTRACTIVE, PETITE BLONDE WITH MAJOR BACK PAIN ISSUES THAT HAS GONE ON FOR A LONG TIME. I GUESS MY HUSBAND COULDN'T HANDLE IT ANYMORE. I HAVE A 17 YR OLD SON WHO WILL BE ATTENDING USF IN THE FALL. I AM LOOKING FORWARD? TO CORRECTIVE BACK SURGERY IN THE NEXT FEW MONTHS AND HOPE TO BECOME A VIBRANT, PAIN FREE, SPIRITUALLY AWAKENED, HAPPY PERSON. I AM LOOKING FOR WAYS TO MEET NEW FRIENDS. I GET ALOT OUT OF SUPPORT FROM PEOPLE WITH SIMILAR CHALLENGES.
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BILLIARDS, LIVE MUSIC, 'PEOPLE WATCHING', BOATING/FISHING (B4 BACK PAIN GOT OUT OF HAND), MY SON AND ALL HIS FRIENDS THAT ALWAYS SHOW UP AT OUR HOUSE (GUESS I'M THE COOL MOM), WATCHING TV (SOAPS & MOVIES), CONSULTING THE 'I CHING' FOR GUIDANCE (ALTHOUGH I AM A CHRISTIAN). **UPDATE** I'VE STARTED MY OWN BUSINESS- AS A MARY KAY CONSULTANT-(TRYING TO ERASE THE SIGNS OF AGING:STRESS, SUN, PAIN, SUFFERING)AND ALSO TO MAKE ENOUGH MONEY TO MAKE MY CAR PMT.& MAYBE INS. ***NEWEST UPDATE*** MY 'MONTRA'..."THE LORD IS NEAR TO THE BROKEN HEARTED AND...CRUSHED IN SPIRIT. BE ANXIOUS FOR NOTHING, BUT IN ALL THINGS BY PRAYER WITH THANKSGIVING, LET YOUR REQUESTS BE KNOWN TO GOD...AND THE PEACE OF GOD WHICH SURPASSES ALL COMPREHENSION, SHALL GUARD YOUR HEARTS AND MINDS IN CHRIST JESUS". (Phil. 4:6, 7) I NOW HAVE A PEACE THAT HAS COME OVER ME, KNOWING THE LORD WILL NOT ALLOW ME TO SUFFER ONE MOMENT LONGER THAN NECESSARY, HE HAS HEARD THE DESIRES OF MY HEART. "YOUR REQUEST HAS BEEN HEARD IN HEAVEN AND WAS ANSWERED THE VERY FIRST DAY"(Daniel 10:12)
BILLIARDS, LIVE MUSIC, 'PEOPLE WATCHING', BOATING/FISHING (B4 BACK PAIN GOT OUT OF HAND), MY SON AND
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FIGURING OUT WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING WRONG
May 4, 2008 4:49pm
Ok, so I really feel like a dumb ass, after reading some pretty good information on the internet I finally had what I call the …
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AFTER THE TEARS...
May 3, 2008 12:48pm
The tears have dried, I fixed my face up, and decided to let all the pain go for now and continue along the path in front of me. I'm …
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CONTINUED...
May 2, 2008 3:27pm
SO, IN THE MIDST OF ALL THIS GOING ON, I TOTALLY BLEW OFF MY THERAPY APPOINTMENT. NOW, I'LL CATCH SHIT FROM HER TOO... I …
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WHAT THE F * * K ! ? ! ? ! ? ! ?
May 2, 2008 3:04pm
WHY IS EVERYTHING SO HARD AND SO PAINFUL? WE'VE BEEN GETTING ALONG VERY WELL THIS WEEK, THEN HE GOT UPSET BECAUSE HE DOESN'T HAVE …
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Hey Nancy Trying to get back to normal after the move. Been incredible busy. But I think I am finally catching up a bit. Hope all is well with you. Sounds like you have alot to deal with as well. Huggs to you!!!!!
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Close Breakups & Divorce
MY HUSBAND ABANDONED ME 4 DAYS BEFORE CHRISTMAS. HE HAD ISSUES W/MY CHRONIC BACK PAIN AFTER FAILED SURG 12/02. HE ALSO HAS HAD PROBLEMS WITH MY OVER-MEDICATING (can't blame him, I was near OD a few times). I THOUGHT MARRIAGE WAS THROUGH SICKNESS AND HEALTH, AND HE IS A CHRISTIAN. BESIDES HE MARRIED ME AFTER I HAD BEEN IN CHRONIC PAIN FOR 9 YEARS AND THE SURGERY MADE IT WORSE. I LOOK FORWARD TO CORR. BACK SURG. & TOLERABLE BACK PAIN. HE WAS AT THE END OF HIS ROPE & I DON'T BLAME HIM FOR LEAVING.
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Not Working
- OUR THERAPIST SUGGESTED HE LEAVE & I UNDERSTAND WHY...I WAS OVER-MEDICATING & IT WAS MORE THAN HE COULD HANDLE. THERAPISTS DO NOT RECOMEND SPOUSES STAY TOGETHER WHEN ONE IS ABUSING ALC/DRUGS/ETC... & POINT OUT THE ENABLING THAT GOES ON. I'VE LEARNED THAT MUCH.
- Forgiveness Not Working
- HE LEFT ME 4 DAYS BEFORE CHRISTMAS. HIS ACTIONS CONFLICTED WITH HIS FEELINGS WHICH HE COULDN'T EXPRESS.
- Love Not Working
- HE IS NOT WILLING TO TRY ANYMORE. HE SAYS HE DIDN'T GIVE UP, HE JUST MOVED ON. WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN?
- Music Not Working
- I HEAR SONGS THAT REMIND ME OF MY SITUATION.
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- MY DOG AND BIRD KEEP ME COMPANY.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- STILL GOING TO THE SAME THERAPIST WHO SUGGESTED HE LEAVE ME. I DO FEEL I AM GAINING INSIGHT MORE ON MY OWN THAN FROM MY THERAPIST.
- Reading Working / Worked
- I AM CURRENTLY READING ECKHART TOLLE'S NEW BOOK ON AWAKENING TO YOUR TRUE SELF. (CHECK OPRAH'S WEB SITE-BOOK CLUB OF THE MONTH)
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- AT LEAST I NOW HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH MY PARENTS.
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- MY DAILY STRENGTH FRIENDS! IT'S VERY HELPFUL & I HOPE I'M HELPFUL TO OTHERS.
- Talking Not Working
- IT IS NOT WORKING TRYING TO TALK IT OUT WITH HIM. I REALLY DON'T HAVE ANYONE ELSE TO TALK TO.
- Time Not Working
- HE HAS MOVED INTO THE OTHER SIDE OF THE HOUSE FOR FINANCIAL/BUSINESS REASONS.
Close Chronic Pain
I HAVE CHRONIC LOWER BACK PAIN. I HAD AN ENDOSCOPIC DISCECTOMY AT L5/S1 TO REMOVE DEAD/DEHYDRATED/RUPTURED DISC. THIS RELIEVED THE SCIATIC PAIN BUT I HAVE SUFFERED WORSE? PAIN EVERY DAY SINCE. I AM LOOKING INTO HAVING CORRECTIVE SURGERY TO INSERT A SPACER. HOPE THIS WILL END THE DEBILITATING PAIN. MY HUSBAND RECENTLY LEFT ME BECAUSE OF ISSUES PERTAINING TO MY CHRONIC PAIN.
Treatments
- Chiropractic Adjustment Not Working
- Heat Working / Worked
- Oxycodone Working / Worked
Open Back Pain
HAD ENDOSCOPIC DISCECTOMY IN 2002 TO REMOVE DEAD/DEHYDATED/RUPTURED DISC. THIS RELIEVED SCIATIC PAIN BUT CAUSED SEVERE CHRONIC LOWER BACK PAIN. CONSIDERING CORRECTIVE SURGERY TO INSERT SPACER WHERE DISC WAS REMOVED.
Treatments
- Carisoprodol Working / Worked
- Epidural Injection Not Working
- Heat Working / Worked
- Oxycodone Working / Worked
Open Degenerative Disc Disease
I suffer from DDD as so many do. In 2002 I had an endoscopic discectomy due to a severely ruptured disc which was dehydrated - the entire disc was removed. I've been suffering with bone-on-bone pain for 6 1/2 years, but a miracle happenned! I was referred to a surgeon who specializes in corrective back surgery and he gave me a 75-80% chance of relief of my pain. Many of u know surgeons always say 50/50. This surg. is very invasive w/very long recovery. If interested,see my profile or send msg.
