Hi my name is Tish and I am a 36 …
Hi my name is Tish and I am a 36 year old married to my high school sweetheart and have two beautiful little girls. I …
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GracieSJ 
It seems most of the women I know on DS are having a hard time right now. I know how hard it can be, especially when you add something like back pain or your moods haven't stablized yet. It's hell. I know... I've visited all the levels hell has. I've been to the brink of insanity and the pit of the darkest depths. I've swang from one end to the other in a single and bounced around like a pinball. Talk about feeling insane.
I'm a single mother of three kids (10, 13, 16). They live with me during my hell. I think trying to hide my insanity makes it worse so I talk to the kids and allow them to see to a certain level. Too much would crush them. It helps me. I can just tell them mommy is having a bad time and then I go to bed. Sometimes they put me in bed. They're awesome kids.
I guess I'm saying we do no one favors when we aren't stable or are experiencing crippling pain. Take care of YOURSELF. Then take care of others. That's what I do. It's why I have my dad say I'm a great mom (he doesn't even like me).
Which brings up another thing. I don't have any support here accept for the kids and you know I can't tell them my true thoughts. My parents and brother just don't seem to get it. Maybe it's hard to understand someone whose insane when you've never been insane. I don't know.
I do know I have new pain med for my back and I'm sooooo happy about that.
I also know I'm thankful for the friends I've met here.
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To A Truly Beautifu Lady;
You are so very lucky, you do have some awesome kids! Well, I really appreciate your insight, and you have not led me wrong yet. (Did you get your five papers written in your book for you and your daughter?)HEHEHE I hope you had a wonderful day, my day may have not been that good, but my night is better so that makes up for it. My doctor upped my medication, not by enough to really help, but anything is a difference.
Just wanted to let you know that I love you and thank God for you very much. You truly helped me last night, and it was wonderful chatting with you as always. I love as well, talking to an intelligent woman, these are hard to find.
P.S. My doctor said that it would not parylize me, just make me hurt like hell, but thought that I am getting a lot out of babysitting, because of the million dollar hugs that I get from the kids. I did have a wonderful night with them, and they are learning to listen so good. The five year old is going to push me as far as I will let him, but that is not too far these days.
Everything turned out really great.
LOL = Lots Of Love
Kacey
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You're swell too Kase!
GracieSJ