GracieSJ's Journal

I don't know if you know what being bipolar is like, but let me assure you it's no fun. I read that people kind of like it because it can make them able to clean the house in a whiz. Ok, that's true for some. They probably have other symptoms. I've had to take four chill pills today. Thankfully I'm also in pain in my ankle so I took two pain pills too. Unfortunately it is now 3:33 a.m. Tuesday and I can't sleep. The tragedy of the whole thing is that Jess is at the ocean, Sydney is at Maia's house and that meant if I got Kyle to spend the night at someone's house I'd have just the space of an even and night and morning all to myself. So far no disasters other than I keep banging my knee on furniture.

I went for about 1/3 of a mile walking with the kids. (the littler ones)I've iced my ankle twice and taken Advil and painkillers. Didn't help... not falling asleep. Sometimes after I blog I can go to sleep.... getting my brain to be still so I can sleep.

My dad made what he called "1950's super juice hamburgers". She's spending night so she'll be there first thing in the morning to watch their spoiled small Jack Russell Terrier. She's sweet, when she's not boring. They always have a sitter for the dog. I swear they treat that dog more special than they do their only grand kids. Tony is totally gay. He and dumb shit Matt have no intention of getting a kid so it was just up to me to continue the line as it were.

Oh yeah, I highlighted the websites and for Go Daddy all my login info. We have a book of "Secrets" that we record all our pass words and user names and such.

Tomorrow my cousins will be in town I'm going to try to hook up with them since I'm going to take my laptop at the Geek Squad in town. I hope I can spend some with Derek. I want him to understand why my moods change. I want to keep in touch with him. Kathy will be here from Alaska too but she always have some kind of reason why she can't give me a few minutes of a minute to shoot me the occasional email.

I'm going to try to sleep now. I'm sleeping in just my underpants. lol The kids are gone. Which... yes, I took my brain drugs on time.

Ciao