nannyp's Journal

I have not written in awhile and felt like I needed to today.  A week ago my doctors office called and stated that they had detected something on my lungs.  Today I go for a CT scan to see what it is.  We think it is probably just scarring from all my years of smoking, but we will see.  The word cancer comes to mind quite often, but I don't think that is what it is.  We will see.  I hope not, because I don't think I can raise these kids and go thru cancer treatment too.  Bio Dad entered treatment yesterday.  We will see what comes of that.  My personal opinion is that they are trying to do what the court ordered in order to get the kids back, but then will resume their druggy behaviors.  Thinking that they can control it enough that no one will know.  I could be wrong and I hope that I am.  I have tried to talk to Dev about how he feels about Dad being in treatment and he just agrees with whatever I say, like, "This is a good thing" and "maybe you will be able to be a family again soon".  I don't think he believes in them either.  Met with the school last week about Alyssa.  I think they are wanting to label her as Autistic and I am just not completely convinced that is the case.  We went over everything with the school psychologist and someone who is supposed to be an expert (autism) for the schools.  Next week I meet with the teacher and the psychologist to discuss their plans for Alyssa for next year.  We will see.  I will also keep following up with the college psychologist dept that I went to for evaluation.  It does not hurt to get a couple of opinions.   We shall see in the next couple of weeks how everything goes.