xxForgetRegretsxx's Journal

Im very bored, mentally tired, deppressed & lonely right now. I got up to go walkin this morning even tho i really didnt want to, but its an must tht i must do on the weekends. So i went with my dad & he didnt want to walk with me, so i waz on my own & tht sucked. 1st time around the park waz cool but i felt kinda lonely & i swear i passed by a van with 2 guys in ther talkin about my bk side lol they said i hav a nice ass. Then i walked up to my dad & asked him wud he walk with me, he yes but he waz listening to the radio the whole time so i might aswell hav walked alone. Then after the 2nd walk around i went dwn the hill to the benches to set dwn, i waz very lonely at tht time. & all the ducks were on the other side of the park so i cudnt feed them unless i wudve walked bk around the other side & i didnt want to. So i looked around & saw how most ppl had somone to talk to & to walk with, i felt even more horrible. So 4 the 1st time ever i asked my dad cud we jus leave & i only walked around the 2times which iz half a mile. I usually walk 4times=1 mile but i waz to depressed. Hopefully tommorow wen i go i can hav somone to walk with or hopefully i will jus feel better, either 1 is ok with me. & now im at home still feelin low, i dont kno why all of a sudden i feel like shit, ive been takin my meds every single day so wtf iz wrong? Right now im jus in a bad mood & wud luv if somthing random wud happen & make me feel happy but no matter how much i wish tht it never happends.