xxForgetRegretsxx's Journal

Well today i went to the best supercenter in the world.....walmart lol. It waz nice to go som wher really public cuz even tho i hate being around alot of ppl i kno tht its wats best for me. So yea it waz pretty cool but i saw ppl staring at me & it made me very uncomfortable, i hate wen ppl do tht cuz i kno the last thing they're doin iz given me a compliment. But owell if i had a magic wond to change who i am & wat i look like i wud but i dont. & my sis kelly wa[ ther & she can be a bitch, like most sisters im sure but kelly always point out the smallest things we say or do. Like i jokingly told my mom tht i wanted a hanna montana barbie & kelly jus criticized me like i waz serious.....like i really wanted a hanna montana barbie & if i did so wat?! Yea im 16 but if i want a fuckin barbie why does tht hav to be a criticizing joke? I dont get kelly cuz one minute shes cool & nice & shows her sweet pregnant side & the next u jus wanna punch her out. If thers 1 person who can make u feel stupid itz kelly & to think tht she'll probably gro outta tht cuz shes havin a baby in a month & she sud be alittle more mature since shes gonna be a mother of 2 kids now, but nope. Kelly will always be kelly, which iz sad if u cant becom more opened minded & non-judgemental wen u get older. But other than tht i left walmart feelin horrible, its wierd how i always liv places more unhappy then frm wen i cam ther....its really wierd but owell like i said. Now my sis introduce another way of dieting, counting carbs. My sis is a dietbetic now so she has to count carbs not calz. & now tht she explain why i sud count carbs its makin dieting more limited. Im gonna hav to count carbs & calz so pretty much i gotta make sure tht its not calorie filled & doesnt hav alot of carbs. Which im glad i kno now but still kinda suxs cuz i bought a 8pack of gatorade but it haz alot of carbs if u drink the whole bottle so i waz thinkin about jus giving them to darrel. But ive decided to jus keep them & only drink them b4 i go walking, like 2m morning ill drink one cuz im gonna need the hydration. Hmm im doin wat i can so yea i sudnt feel to baf right?