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  Shoyo36 (11/26/09)

  Sorry I haven't written back. I've been thinking about you like crazy. A lot has been going on here. I'm not in the program anymore. I'll tell you more when I write you later. Love you and miss you tons. Stay strong! XOXOXO
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  xxEmxx (11/26/09)

  hey hun, i got the house, the nicest one and the people are nice and finally sometihng is going right. even with uni i'm slowly putting my life back on track. but i went down a bit when the girl said to jack that they were worried i wouldnt like them. but i was just so tired and thats what he said to them. i was half asleep cos i 'd only slept 2hrs in 2nights. and i asked about them smoking insdie cos jack was worried aobut it. and i talked aobtu noise eg on the weekedn but all i said was that so long as i dont have an exam the next day i dont care. i guess i'm just disappointed cos i wanted to come across as normal and happy and easy going and desireable to live with. but i guess they must think that anyway cos we're living with them. going round tonight to take the bond money. but i feel like i have to be more careful or act harder to be normal which sucks.
  
  but bottom line is , i talked to uni and withdrew iwthout academic penalty from one unit, and dunno about the other, it sucks that i cant be a div2 nurse cos i didnt complete the nutrition unit. bugger. but hey, i've got a house.
  
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  xxEmxx (11/22/09)

  Aww hun, sorry the wedding was a balls-up. But I guess thats what you were expecting. At least its over now. And good on you for emailing your therapist, she's there to help. Yeah i've always been a bit cynical but i'm ok with that. it was either that or let rip and tell the stupid skank exactly what i thought of her.
  
  not having much luck witht he house hunting, jack is being a tool cos he's stressed out like i normally am so i'm trying to organise it.
  
  anyywa, hope you'lll be home soon xoxo
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  xxEmxx (11/22/09)

  Eep hun! Hoping it goes ok. Try and do what you suggested I do with the psych hosp abuse meeting, and pretend likey you're just observing it like its a movie and be a distant to it. I'll be thinking of you. Just got stoned with a mate, was outside and then preggers and her feral bf were moving more of his stuff in. just made me so mad because its fucked and they're all happy and excited, meanwhile jack and i have been stressed out of our heads because its so fucking hard to find a place to stay. and she said sometihng careless about it being funny (as in weird) and i was really cynical/sarcastic/bitch and said yeah its hilarious. and i walked away pretty quick cos i'm tired and dont want to start a scene and i have nothing to say to here that will be positive etc.n but she said come back . and i would have felt finshed immature had i walked off. but i was so annoyed. and meanwhilst they're just expecting us to be happy and she said a few other things that werent particularly sensitive and asked when we'll move out and what we'll do if we dont find a house etc. and i was just so shitty. she knew i was a bit stoned and couldn't really compute much one would think. urgh now jake is home and i'm scared we'll get busted for being stoned. and i'm pissed cos my friend and i were just meant to be outside smoking and listening to music and being happy and chilled and that spoiled it because i just had all these dark shit thoughts about how all i loved is going and they're getting it, and i felt really bitter. but they dont even give a fuck that this is doing so much harm. jack has lost his bundle and being all stressed and i'm trying to pick up the slack but its hard when my head is a mess. really havign fuck all luck with a house. stresseing the crap out of me.
  talk to you when you get back.
  lots of love xoxo
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  xxEmxx (11/21/09)

  how are things going at home hun? when do you get back? is the wedding over? i still can't really tell you much about the meeting. been trying not to think with some success. i went to the exam only to find the day had been changed and i missed it so i freaked out and at the same time slept through the psychol app from staying up all night studying so i was so mad and i wont know til monday what's going to happen.
  
  and its so hard finding a house. we've missed out on 3that we applied for even though the real estate lady said nothing was wrong with our apps, they landlord just chose someone else. urgh. getting really stressed out. and i dont want to have to leave behind my piano, that would break my heart. its really been a help with the depression cos its something i've grown up with and don't want to lose. maybe my feral house mates think i'll sell it to them. i'd rather be dead. and they still haven't paid my bond back. but they've paid jacks. so mad and urgh. but i've dug up most of my rasperberries. not going to leave them there, fucking vultures. and worse, they just sit around and do nothing, nesting in MY house and they just take it for granted how easy they have it. drives me fucking nuts. its not fair. i should have just paid for the whole house myself until i found 3 other tennants. fuck i'm mad . even the night before my exam, the sperm donor had his band around and fucking banging away til 12, they knew i had an exam. cockheads.
  
  the only shining light is i 've booked my ticket to india. just need my visa. oh and i've been socialising a bit more, so thats two shining lights i guess.
  
  take care hun, miss you xoxox
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  xxEmxx (11/19/09)

  survived the meeting. head a mess/not making sense/blocked out a lot. exam tomorrow? but whats the point of it if i dont even know if i have passed the unit in terms of attendence and late /not complete assignment i dont know. hope you're hanging in there hun you'll be free in a week? xoxo
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  xxEmxx (11/16/09)

  Woah, can't believe the meeting is less than 24hrs away (only just) but still, freaking me out. I'm scared that once its over, all hope of a good outcome will be gone. i know thats negative but thats how i feel. and i missed my dietician app. slept in. i suck. will be thinking of you going home hun, urgh that really sucks. hang in there xoxo
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  xxEmxx (11/15/09)

  Hey hun, man i have a huge headache. i'm trying to stay calm but it feels like i've not got any good coping mechanisms left. everything crept up on me. i just want to sleep. i dont even want to smoke. just sleep. take care hun, i'll be thinking of you too xoxo
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  xxEmxx (11/15/09)

  hey, i got your mail. will reply when i'm more together. hope your not too cold. take care xoxo
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  xxEmxx (11/08/09)

  hey hun. not going good. seeing dr tomorrow. take care xo

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