Love you all, jeezy - vacation
November 19, 2008 8:17pm
VACATION im so ready for this and it explains it :) love you all and dont forget to keep in touch loveyyys !! xoxo *mwa [Intro]I got …
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ProtectmeMJT 
10:35pm, October 13, 2009
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About Me
ProtectmeMJT
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About Me
I love this site and meeting new people, well not literally haha i wish i could meet you guys though, its so nice to have people with something in common with you to talk about and you all help me thru everything i could ever need, you have no idea how you many times you all kept me alive each day :D!
I love this site and meeting new people, well not literally haha i wish i could meet you guys though, its so nice to have people with something in common with you to talk about and you all help me thru everything i could ever need, you have no idea how you many times you all kept me alive each day :D!
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Interests
love, kisses, music, alcohol, smoking.
love, kisses, music, alcohol, smoking.
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Journal
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Hugbook
Chocolate
i wanted to tell you that you are soo beautiful. i hope that we could talk one day. you look like a very interesting person. i'm here if you ever need to talk. bye sweetie much love.
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Hug
just wanted to say hi iand that you look ver beautiful in this pic. hope that you are doing good
Hug
miss you, hope you looking after yourself, let me know when you are next on......
Miss You
:( i dont even know what to say anymore, i miss you so much it hurts :(
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Little Love
hey sweetie how are doing....need to talk got alot of my mind.please help.
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Support Groups
Close Rape
becoming open about my rape is a hard thing to do, no one truly knows the whole real story besides me and i would like to keep it that way, talking about rape is not an accepted topic at all and people think its an "attention thing" like aw she wants attention, oh she wanted it, shes lying, oh i was there and this happened blah blah get out of my life! and i know in my heart i was drugged and under the influence of alcohol and some sort of other i was fully functioning but my brain wasn't.....
Treatments
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Considering
- i want to join this when i can actually move out and make decisions for myself because i feel like I'm in it alone, and i just have so much built inside me..
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Rape Counseling Not Working
- Xanax Working / Worked
- my mom stopped giving it to me so now im like blah.
Close Depression - Teen
had it since i was 11 or 12. who knows, but whatever.
Treatments
- Lexapro Not Working
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- Lexapro Not Working
- Pets Considering
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- Xanax Somewhat Helpful
- mom took me off it, i loved it, although almost OD.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
happend after this huge ordeal, im basically the poster child for the after affects for post traumatic stress disorder, no one unless they have PTSD really can empathize and sympathize with what you are feeling and what you need to go through and thats the worse feeling inside to ever feel.
Treatments
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Not Working
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Rape Counseling Too Soon to Tell
- "see above rape"
Open Codependency
im the defintion of codependent. weird how i finally found out what it was called.it consumes my life, i get used, walked over, im a pushover, i get played, i get toyed with, its all a game to these people, i keep going back and i cant even press charges against my rapist!!! this is going out of control..
Treatments
- Emotional Freedom Techniques (EFT) Not Working
- Pets Too Soon to Tell
- Reiki Too Soon to Tell
- aw i love my lady i go too, shes so sweet.
- Talking Not Working
Open Hypothyroidism
got diagnosed about 3 years ago, trying to get with it and maintain everything but i keep forgetting to take my medicine, so it becomes a disater with my weight, and i continuously have people calling me fat, and that doesnt help at all, isduogoiudg god, i done.
Treatments
- Armour Thyroid Working / Worked
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
i have emotional abusive scars that will not heal and that will stay inside of me, the psychical abuse is getting better hopefully and will never come back to me again, from outsiders not my family anymore..knock on wood.
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Considering
- see above for rape.
- Forgiveness Not Working
- how can i forgive someone who hurt me so bad?
- Music Not Working
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- MY PARENTS TOOK ME OUT OF IT
Open Phobia
Type: Social Phobiaits more of a paranoia than a phobia, but they dont even have a support group for that which is kind of stupid, but i got this after all this happend, i cant even go out without having panick attacks and looking around constantly in fear that i may see one of those people who want to hurt me, or have already succeeded, i cant go out into public places that i know they will be, i wake up at nite and stare out the window, if i hear the slightest sound, my heart stops and i think they are there.
Treatments
- Acceptance Not Working
- Hypnotherapy Considering
Open Food Addiction
i have an unhealthy obsession with food is what alot call it, like oh hey just put down the food fatty! okay its not that easy. i bing eat my weight in food until i look like im pregnant and can feel the puke rising up although i do not purge with my lack of gag reflex, but i can't take it i always feel like im in this alone..THIS IS RUINING MY LIFE AND MY RELATIONSHIPS WITH EVERYONE
Treatments
- DailyStrength Too Soon to Tell
Open Sexual Abuse
Rape February 23 ... i dread that day when it comes
Treatments
- Leave Considering
- when i turn 18 and go to college, i have to spend a year here because thats what i have money for right now in the bank, but after that im going to live with my sister in another state, i just can't live here with all the memory's.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- i like to lock myself in my room, well i don't have a lock but still, i put korns greatest hits in my radio and play it so loud it just gets all my emotions out through the songs.
- Talking Not Working
- My parents dont understand and no one really does unless they been through it and its not an accepted topic to talk about, its usually an "attention thing" people think, news flash! no one wanted to be sexually abused.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionsince i was 11 or 12. was in it deep, still am. chemical imbalance, ran in the family.
Treatments
- Lexapro Not Working
- i forget to take my medication
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- my sister is amazing at this but im not.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Wellbutrin Somewhat Helpful
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- daily strength
Open Family Issues
my parents never help me, they even tell me im in on this my own im too old for any support from them.
Treatments
Open Self-Injury
Recovered Self Injurer, proud to say it, it took work, but i see it as a weakness and i cant let people see they get to me any longer, i use to take my dads new razorblades from the tool box and cut my skin open until blood would gush out of me then i pass out, now because of it i have to live with all these huge bubbled up scars out in the open....i wish i could take them back...
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Didn't work, i don't feel like people can help you if they never been through it themselves.
- Writing Working / Worked
- i would write on here and in my journal all the time.. it was terrible..
Open Diabetes Type 2
i dont want to die :( im scared..or get anything cut off like my legs uhhhhhh
Treatments
- Eating Healthier Foods Not Working
- i have no self control!
Open Hypochondria
i figured it was time to join this, i wanted to hold off tho -_-, i always think im dying, i have the stomach flu and im going to puke all over, i have appendicitus, anything it ruins my life i dont go to school and i dont go out because i always feel sick hahah but its mostly from my anxiety too, other than that nah, but i do have a stomach parasite err w.e. it eats off my high insulin. ew.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- i just have to hold my breathe for 3 counts then do it as many times as needed
Open Breakups & Divorce
i was inlove. yes i know what love is.
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
- Time Working / Worked
