Journal Entry for October 31, 2008
October 31, 2008 5:00pm
well its been a while, since I`ve been on here or wrote in my journal, so I am still trying to find my way and seem to be getting better at it …
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shell03133 
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About Me
shell03133
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About Me
Hi my name is shell, i have been daily depressed for some time especially after my separation from my partner of 22 years. There was tremendous emotional abuse and physical abuse during our relationship and I always wanted to get away I finnally did, now i feel even after 2 years, i dont know who I am and I am emotionally and socially I am very insecure about myself and very lonely But I know I was not suppose to have that kind of a life and now i cant seem to have one i also dont have any family , meaning i lost half of iy some years ago in a house fireand they say i have p.t.s.d. that is post tramatic syndrome disorder, cause after all these years I still have them in my head so much every day.
Hi my name is shell, i have been daily depressed for some time especially after my separation from my partner of 22 years. There was tremendous emotional abuse and physical abuse during our relationship and I always wanted to get away I finnally did, now i feel even after 2 years, i dont know who I am and I am emotionally and socially I am very insecure about myself and very lonely But I know I was not suppose to have that kind of a life and now i cant seem to have one i also dont have any family
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Interests
I like reading i am somewhat religious, and i like writing.
I like reading i am somewhat religious, and i like writing.
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Journal Entry for October 8, 2008
October 8, 2008 11:05am
I am currentlety feeling better about myself and have gotten back into poetry,for a very long time i stopped writing it and have come back,, it is …
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Journal Entry for October 8, 2008
October 8, 2008 11:05am
I am currentlety feeling better about myself and have gotten back into poetry,for a very long time i stopped writing it and have come back,, it is …
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trying to get by
July 31, 2008 7:15pm
hi i decided to come out of seclution after much time and i am still trying to cope with everyday life., i miss my old life even thiough i was i was …
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THE PASSING
March 2, 2008 8:13pm
DO NOT GREIVE FOR ME IN THIS LIFE THAT I HAVE LEFT, FOR I AM SURLY COMFORTED IN MEMORIES,THAT YOU KEPT. THIS LIFE ON EARTH IS FAR FAR GONE AND IM AT …
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thank you for your comments on my journal. hugs from me.
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Just a quick hello, Thinking of you Phil
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thank you I needed that, I lost my mom 5/12 yrs ago to cancer and I thought it would get easier for me but it just seems to get tougher everyday..If I could only have her back for 5 minutes or 1 day...she was my best friend and I miss her so much. there is such a hole and emptiness in my heart I dont think it will ever be filled again..maybe when the day comes and I can see her again...take care..Becky
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Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionthank u for this site,,there are so many people on here I can relate to, I have been dpressed for so long. tried different meds with all bad side effects, I am going to try again to meditate and trust god more, power as they say, hsve loss of so many people,early in life till now, I think to myself things would of been diffferent, I wouldn`t be this way, but I don`t know, thanks for all ur stories, we seem to help each other alot this way, at least it seems to help me, I`m not alone
Treatments
- Cymbalta Not Working
- I had sever sleep problems, and stomach problems
- Paxil Working / Worked
- it seemed to effect my memory, and I had suicide thoughts
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I have been to couceling on and off since I was 32, I`m 47 now
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- no matter the dose, it was horrible, all I wanted to do was sleep I woke up like a zombie every day, hated it
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- I have no family left, except 2 sisters that I can talk to a couple tilmes a week, I have 2 grown children who have their own livves and I get along with them great , but have their own problems,so I hide my dpression from them as much as I can.
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- the same side effects as seroquel, horrible
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