RaeofLight's Journal

It's been a while since my last writing and I just really don't even know where to begin.  Over the past 2 years, my family has been through so many storms.  My sister in law was diagnosed with breast cancer, my son was deployed to Iraq, my other sister in law was killed (burned to death) in a car accident, 2 divorces in the family and now a close family member has been charged with a horrible crime and is currently in jail awaiting trial (bail denied).  I am a Christian, but I still have to ask the question, "Why us - what is it God that you are trying to teach us?"  Is it strength, patience, humility, compassion?  Will we ever know?  Maybe the lesson from all of this is just that life is hard.  I want to believe that something good has to come from all this heartache and suffering.  I've been unbelievably strong through this latest crisis, but I am begininng to feel myself unravel.  I feel like I need to close my bedroom door and sleep for days.  I am just so weary and tired!