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MGwen 
It's been a while since I've written or even checked the website for that matter. My relationship with my boyfriend is wonderful. I'm not sure when or how things got better sexually, but they did. I think we both stop putting so much pressure on it all and things fell into place. There is still some "down time" so to speak, but all in all it's 90% better than it was in February.
Not sure how I feel anymore, just kind of numb. Mentally I've told myself that my boyfriend and I aren't going to have sex anymore...just take it out of the equation. Less stress on him and I won't expect any trying on his part, but that totally sucks. I'm miserable and sad all the time, but I don't let him see that side of me because I don't want to make him feel bad. We cuddle and kiss, but I need so much more to feel loved....what a messed up way for a girl to think, but it's true. He can tell me a 100 times that he loves me, but I need the physical love also.
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I know exactly how you feel. I don't want to seem shallow, but I often think the same way. Hearing "I love you" doesn't always help, it just makes things more confusing.
Jazzing
I'd love some cuddling and kissing...i think you're pretty lucky. I get nothing...so you see, it really COULD be worse!
But then again, is there any reason you can think of as to why he's not physical? How long have you been together?
momatzo