kaja2008's Journal

Oh boy, time flies! Laza is one month old and he had 9 lbs 11 oz at one month checkup! His doc said he looks like a two month old! He is definitely eating well :) and I can tell he's grown so much. I posted all our pics at:

   http://picasaweb.google.com/sunshine.jelena

We're doing well but we had quite a few little problems to overcome. He had a few days when he cried on and off except when eating - we're not sure if he had gas or if he was just overstimulated because around that time he seemed to also start to notice the external world much more. Then we had a sleepy day which freaked me out because he barely woke up to eat for like a few mintures and then would go back to sleep. I even phoned the doc to ask about this and she said it's a growth spurt and as long as he has 1+ wet diaper per 12 hours and 1+ dirty diaper per 24 hours things are fine. 

Laza's sleeping is very variable. He seems to still wake up to eat each 2 hours but sometimes has a 3 hour stretch. Then every now and then there'll be a night when he sleeps 4 hours in between meals. My mood varies too. Some days I am very tired and wonder how will I make it once I start working again on top of this schedule. Then other days I'm rested and feel I could do this forever. I wish my DH would help more. He tries and he does help a lot but still I feel I'm doing 90% of work. I kinda expected this to be more of a 50/50 division. My MIL has come to help us out and she takes care of Laza sometimes while I catch an hour of sleep. She also cooks lunch but it upsets me that the lunch time always varies and that I need to make my own breakfast and dinner. Perhaps I'm spoiled :) but there were days when I was so preoccupied with Laza I had barely time to go to the bathroom so I'd appreciate if someone did full cooking for me. It's not easy to go hungry when breastfeeding. But things are better now that he sleeps a little more and doesn't cry except when very tired or hungry, so I'm beginning to enjoy my MIL's company more. She's definitely a great help! 

I am eager for Laza to show some signs of communicating with us. He's started smiling to us, I think. It's still very  random but there were a few times when he'd look at us and give us a smile and these are lovely! He also seems more susceptible to being taken out for a walk - at some point he didn't like this but thankfully that passed. I'm beginning to slowly feel more confident in my role as a mother - I used to feel as if I had no clue what I'm doing but it seems that he's thriving so we're doing something right. I am also eager to have a little more predictable schedule but I think we're slowly getting there.

Sending lots of hugs and kisses to my DS buddies and I'm thinking of all of you who are still waiting for your miracle. I am praying that it comes soon. It is magical!