More confused than ever....
February 7, 2009 5:12pm
Dear Whomever-
Well, I've passed thru Leonard's death anniversary and I still haven't quit grieving. …
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Goal End Date is May 6, 08 574 days ago.
Pacer 
6:06pm, September 6, 2009
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About Me
Pacer
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About Me
My fiacee died Jan 14, o8 and I'm having alot of trouble to cope with it!I need to talk to someone who has been thru this and a shoulder to cry on, etc.Can't afford the bills and eat and buy other necessaties and don't know where to go for help. I'm just generally bummed out! Is there someone out ther who I can chat with about it and other things?
My fiacee died Jan 14, o8 and I'm having alot of trouble to cope with it!I need to talk to someone who has been thru this and a shoulder to cry on, etc.Can't afford the bills and eat and buy other necessaties and don't know where to go for help. I'm just generally bummed out! Is there someone out ther who I can chat with about it and other things?
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Reading, Drawing(pencil only) walking, talking with freinds, (new or old freinds, organizing things, going to thrift shops and yard sales. If anyone out there wants a picture drawn just E-mail me a example or deal me the subject and I will do my best to draw it for you!!!I need to keep busy!1
Reading, Drawing(pencil only) walking, talking with freinds, (new or old freinds, organizing things,
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To be.. or not to be..pardon me?
October 6, 2008 11:41pm
Let me see.. where to start. Well, as you know if you read my profile, I lost my soul-mate Jan. 14th of this year.It's hard to …
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Want a pencil drawing?
March 26, 2008 7:25am
EVERYBODY!!!!!!
If anyone is interested I draw pencil(cause I'm out of charcoal) drawings and if you
have a …
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Tues. Dr. Day
March 25, 2008 6:20pm
whom ever,
Started the day at 7AM, did my face hair,got dressed. Went to storage building and brought
out all the Summer …
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Hi there, I don't know if you remember me - you are on my friends list and I havn't logged onto this site for about a year as I've been unwell....wonder if you still would like to be friends?
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Thanks Steff. How are you feeling and what are you up to? I'm sort of flat - just go through every day not too up and not too down.
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The same must be true for you too!
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Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Partner/SpouseMy fiancee died jan. 13th and I'm having a really hard time ddealing with it. His daughter kicked me out the day after He died and thank goodness I had kept my apt the last three years or I guess I would be in the street He left me an annuity of some money to help me pay the extra expences I have now but the family won't give me a death certificate so I having to go the long way thru Vital Statistics and it's already been more than a month and they haaven't found any death certificate .
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- I'm going to therapy 1 time a week and that has been helping a little bit but I'm just so lonely and forlorn,hopeless, empty inside. And then the bills came in and I don't know how I'm going to pay the bills on my S.S. and S.S.I checks!!!I tried drawing to give me something to do. But the picture requested only took 2 days, so now what? I don't know what to do with myself and I can't afford to keep calling the crisis line cause I don't have enough minute on my plan to really say or cry.
- Music Working / Worked
- sometimes it helps for a little while
- Prayer Working / Worked
- When I pray I pray to my Leonard and God and even tho' I'm blubering and all that it usually make me feel able to at least go to sleep ( with the help of medications.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Once a week is not as much as I'd like but it is all I can get at the moment.
- Reading Working / Worked
- I've read 24 books since this all happened and it does help me keep my mind off things for a while but I can't afford to keep buying books!
- Remembering Working / Worked
- Sometimes when I'm remembering all the wonderful things we shared and the way he would look at me with such love, I cry but it does comfort me some
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- My sister. Annette has been very supportive and helps me alot along with my son whom I talk to both everyday, sometimes to my sister 3 or 4 times a day!
- Time Working / Worked
- When he first died I was so busy going thru the boxes of stuff and organizing it I was too tired to have time to grieve, but now I've got everything caught up and there is nothing to occupy my time.
