Haven't felt like writing
November 19, 2009 6:56am
Right now, I feel mostl;y ok, and I am hoping to stay in that place mentally. Can't change anything about the layoffs at work, the hep c …
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HealingInside
4:37pm November 18
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About Me
HealingInside
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About Me
My name is Rick, and I am healing from the effects of sexual abuse. While the abuse began when I was around age 5, the worst of it occurred in my teen years, and ended at age 19. Today I am healing and doing well. (and getting better all the time) I am actively involved with two 12 step support programs, and have chosen to make healing my top priority.
My name is Rick, and I am healing from the effects of sexual abuse. While the abuse began when I was around age 5, the worst of it occurred in my teen years, and ended at age 19. Today I am healing and doing well. (and getting better all the time) I am actively involved with two 12 step support programs, and have chosen to make healing my top priority.
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Website
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Interests
Speaking Out: I have made my own website, and am trying to get my story out as completely, and honestly as possible. Check it out at: www.innocencedeclared.org/walloftruth/rickysstory.html Healing: www.vitalcycles.org
Speaking Out: I have made my own website, and am trying to get my story out as completely, and honestly
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Recent Activity
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1 hug given, 1 hug received, 1 journal post
Thursday
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HealingInside wrote a journal entry: Haven't felt like writing 6:56am
Right now, I feel mostl;y ok, and I am hoping to stay in that place mentally. Can't change anything…
November 18
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HealingInside updated their status 4:37pm
Doing OK...…
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HealingInside gave ptriss a hug 4:37pm
thanks for your support, you are in my thoughts....…
November 17
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HealingInside wrote a journal entry: still waiting 5:10pm
Work is getting scary, but I am hopecfull I will get through this round of layoffs... Hope I do anyway.…
November 16
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HealingInside wrote a journal entry: feeling better, but still sad 4:48pm
Still feeling sad, but also starting to feel happier about the time I did spend with her. She was such…
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Journal
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still waiting
November 17, 2009 5:10pm
Work is getting scary, but I am hopecfull I will get through this round of layoffs... Hope I do anyway. Ishould be starting treatment right at the …
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feeling better, but still sad
November 16, 2009 4:48pm
Still feeling sad, but also starting to feel happier about the time I did spend with her. She was such a sweet sweet dog. She was so gentle, and so …
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grief and loss
November 13, 2009 4:57pm
Still hurting.... Shadow's death has been verey hard for me. I will miss her so much. Cried alot yesterday, but I know I am not done …
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still don't know when I am starting tx
November 10, 2009 6:55pm
waiting on the drugs to get ordered and sent... probably will be a week from friday at the earliest.
Also got some bad news. Doctor never bothered to …
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Hugbook
Thanks
Thanks for the hug, Rick, and I am doing much better this morning.
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Loss of a pet is miserable.
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Sympathy
Sorry to hear about shadow...I know it hurts.
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Thanks
I'm doing better, thanks.
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Rainbow
Don't worry about the future, my friend, and let the past go; it no longer exists. When you're not living in expectation, you're less likely to be caught in negativity. I encourage you to not live in the imagination of what might happen, but live in the reality of this moment. There is much joy to be discovered therein.
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Sexual Abuse
I was molested and raped on various occassions by begining when I was 11. Other less brutal form of abuse began when I was 5 or so. I blocked all memories of the abuse from when it started until 4 years ago. In the years in between, I struggled with various addictions including alchohol, struggled with self-injury, and was mired in feeling of self-hate. 4 years ago, I decided it was time to die, or time to live. ---I chose to live.--- I got sober in AA, and began a new journey. More below..
Treatments
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Joined 12 Step program for Survivors- www.vitalcycles.org Life changing event for me.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Talking with sfae people in and out of my various groups has been hugely helpful.
Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Healing from the effects of Childhood sexual abuse- Includng PTSD
Treatments
- EMDR Considering
- Many if my firends RAve about it- am considering it soon.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Not as effective for me- but it did help a little. I will try it again soon.
Open Self-Injury
I am healing from the effects of childhood sexual abuse. In addition to other type of abuse, I was raped and sodmized anally- I have struggled with self-injury that re-injures myself in a similar manner. As a man, I frquently experienec great shame over this. I hope to connect with other folks who also deal with the pain of abuse in a similar way.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Incredibly helpful once I was able to share this personal info in front of a group. I am begining to hold my head high while talking about it.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Talking about it has helped me start to see that the self-injury is really self-soothing. IT is his shame not mine.
Open Hepatitis C
I tested postive for hepatitis C, and I am scared- waiting for my 1st appointment with a specialist
