Journal

So as for the Freshman locker issue, I didn't get one thankfully and got a Sophomore locker. :]

Now on to the bad dream...Last night I had this dream. It was kind of confusing so bare with me. Alright, in the dream, I was taken away from my parents because they aren't good parents, and was forced to live with this one couple down the road. So one day in the dream I was missing them, and just walked down there only to find my sister's van crashed into their house. So I just peek in the window, and I see my sister holding my mom at gunpoint. D:

So naturally, I run back to the other house. But when I get there, it looks like we have been robbed because all of the furniture is turned over and things are broken and tossed about. I hear someone walking in another room so i run for the front door. I end up going over to a neighbor's house and they take me in. I tell them the story. So we sit and look out her window, and see that the person in the other room had been my foster mother, and she was holding a shotgun.

:S   I hate dreams like that. Now I'm all paranoid someone is going to break in and kill me.

So I pretty much decided that 1. waking up at 1 in the morning every night craving pancakes probably isn't a good thing, 2. I don't like being lied to.

Dealing With The Issues

1. The Pancakes Yeah I have no idea why I randomly wake up and want pancakes (or sometimes its cupcakes...mmmm cupcakes). Haha I sound like a fat kid.

2. Lies So this guy (Travis) and I were talking like last week and he told me that he still liked me. (For those of you who don't know, he used to like me last school year and I liked him, but nothing happend between us). But I told him that I wasn't sure how I felt because I haven't talked to him in like three months. Then last night, he was talking about how he doesn't want to block his ex-girlfriend on WindowsLivesMessenger because he might need her. And so I'm like "you still like her, huh." and he's like "yeah" and then I say "actually, you still love her" but he didn't say anything. He like changed the subject. And it's not like it should matter to me, but I dunno I just hate being told that. I mean that stuff always happens to me.

Blah. So I really don't want to go to school on Tuesday (it's the first day). Maybe I should skip? Nah, too obvious. Apparently alot of Sophomores are getting Freshmen lockers (and the Freshmen lockers are tiny, like you can only fit two text books in them, last year this Junior gave me his because he was sharing with his girlfriend so I lucked out). It's really going to irk me if I have to have a Freshman locker. I'll break it. I swear to...I swear to the ceiling fan I will. I'll find out tonight (I register for school tonight...oh joy) which locker I get and what my classes are. I suppose I'll keep you posted.

So if you are reading this journal entry, you probably read the title and are wondering, "What is with this girl?" Well, I'm just starting to wonder what this next school year will bring. It starts nexts week and I'm already stressing over it. There's this girl, Leslie Harsh, who I was friends with last year, but we kind of drifted away over the summer, but I figured we'd be friends again this school year. Well, I just found out that she is moving in with her mom, and is no longer going to attend my school. So there goes my last friend. Because the friend before her was always mean to me and would tell me how ugly I look. So now I don't know what I'm going to do. And this guy that I started to like over the summer, but then backed off because I saw on his MySpace that he was starting to talk to his ex again, well he messaged me this morning because we hadn't talked at all for like three days and he said "I miss you."' which I thought was really sweet. And I know what you're thinking, "Why don't you just be friends with this guy? Guys and girls can be friends." but I can't because he lives in another town. I mean, I'll be friends, but he won't be very helpful when I need someone to sit with at lunch.

So yeah I'm just curios about what is in store for me this school year. Last school year I got my first inschool suspention (I cried), but I also went to prom. I have this feeling inside of me that something BIG is going to happen this year.

I'll keep you posted!